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[badlydrawnaradia]

happy hall0ween everyb0dy!

i decided i'd g0 as jane d0e fr0m ride the cycl0ne this year 0u0

[blindsol-itude]

sometimes i find pe0ples vent blogs and i w0nder if anyone ever stumbles acr0ss mine and has a quick lo0k through it i mean its p0sted on my ab0ut page i dont really hide my feelings just d0nt really share them with people wh0 dont make an eff0rt to find them 0ut

[automatonarisen-blog]

makes an unintelligible n0ise

[automatonarisen-blog]

the fr0g days are 0ver 

the fr0g days are g0ne

[automatonarisen-blog]

I really wish you would stop feeling sorry for yourself and get up and better yourself so that you can be accepted again. You haven't changed at all. You have only looked for other people willing to accept what you are. If you want everyone back, it's time to act like it and prove it.

excuse y0u

d0 y0u think its that easy!

that i can just suddenly change and turn ar0und the way ive been acting

d0 y0u think its a split sec0nd desici0n and after i make it everything is rainb0ws and butterflies

have y0u spent sweeps lab0ring under d00m and a sense 0f pers0nal resp0nsibility

have y0u th0ught y0u al0ne were the cause 0f the deaths 0f all y0ur friends

have y0u thr0wn away the tw0 best things in y0ur life because y0u felt y0u didnt deserve them

c0me back when y0u have 

i d0nt like y0ur t0ne and im n0t g0ing t0 accept y0ur c0ndescensi0n 

im d0ing the best i can and f0r n0w that will have t0 be g00d en0ugh

[automatonarisen-blog]

i cant help but w0nder what im like in their future

but then i think

im pr0bably n0t much different

im the same as i used t0 be here regardless 0f h0w l0ng ive spent dead

and in the future i cant imagine anything changing

death is t00 static f0r it t0 make much 0f a difference

and im n0t inv0lved in their shenanigans as far as i can tell

especially since talking t0 me is 'n0stalgic'

[automatonarisen-blog]

i d0nt care what y0u say 

r0mantic tensi0n is infinitely w0rse than sexual tensi0n

n0t that ive experienced much 0f the latter