#kindofalifeupdate

[arcticjilliandreams]

You fucking forgot the personal rule you have for yourself, Jillian.

"Never fucking answer back. Internalize that shit!”

[arcticjilliandreams]

May 19, 2024

Let me just dump this shit while its still in my head because ADHD will definitely happen (or I might just get overwhelmed after a few weeks and rant lol)

An invitation would have been nice even if I won't be able to go, you know? This feels like déjà vu wtf. I don't want to ask/tell you this as I know you're under a lot of pressure and stress so I'll just leave this here.

"Pareho-pareho na lang prayer mo."

Well I don't know, why don't you pray instead of asking me to do it? Sometimes I hate weaponized incompetence but in this case I feel its needed. I also remember clearly you have had enough of me being talkative. Gahd when will this life end automatically without human intervention.

[arcticjilliandreams]

Back from procrastinating my feelings online

I don't know why I avoid writing my thoughts & feelings here when I know for a fact I will just have to deal with them when it all becomes too much to handle.

Hello tumblr! I don't want to start at a negative point but here we are with the shit I've been avoiding to face for the past 3 months since I lost my job again. Yes! I'm once again unemployed and dreading every day that I'm alive.

I keep avoiding. I keep wallowing. I'm so tired of feeling things.

I'm so sick of being alive.

Ayoko na putangina.

[arcticjilliandreams]

Original post in August 2, 2023

January 7, 2024 Sunday

Last day of my 29th year on Earth (TW I'm not going to commit suicide). My birthdays tomorrow, don't know what to feel honestly.

EDIT: ADHD at work again.

Girl, 6 months late ka na HAHAHA. I'm sorry for the long absence, I was exhausted with life. I was a corporate slave in retail. I don't have anything to share right now just that I'm no longer working in retail.

kthnksbye thanks for listening to my Ted talk.