For Amanda, Ann, Missa, Michelle, Madie, Maddie, Maggie, Marisela (omg i have come to the conclusion all my friends names start with an M. OTL) and all my other beautiful friends~
And for every other beautiful friend I am pretty sure you know who you are. I just didn't want to make the title too long and I find all the Ms really freaking hilarious. Basically, if you have ever even said hello to me, ever comforted me, or anything of the sort, or had me do the same for you, this is for you.
(except for Jesse because she doesn't follow this blog anymore because she can't stand the Korean stuff everywhere so she just follows my girly blog. LOL I'll send you a love note tomorrow bb)
I don't really get to spend a lot of time with or talk with a lot of you anymore...and that saddens me a lot...because I really think you guys are some of the best friends I've ever had.
I remember, back before life started hitting me so hard, I could just run to my computer after getting home and be like "Time to talk to the most AMAZING people evarrr"
I'd pop in to almost all of Ann's tinychats and embarrass myself and fangirl.
I'd spam pictures of people and swoon.
I'd post those "send me messages" things and get about one, two, three, not a lot but a suitable amount and just smile and answer them.
I'd smother people with love messages all the time.
I'd waste my money on more kpop merch I don't /really/ need.
All of that.
But it seems life has gotten...ahead of me so to speak.
Work isn't as much of an issue as it used to be. I'm used to my job now, I still love it, and I know exactly what I'm doing. It's perfect and I have truly been blessed.
School is...so-so...except I will have to take semester finals this semester so uh...yeah expect me to be missing right before winter break but don't worry you won't get rid of me THAT easily. I'll be back.
My mom spent over night at the hospital, scaring me half to death, but it's still scary though it is good she is alright. I am so thankful.
But with everything else and all the little things it really intermingles.
And I think now though, everything might just be starting to come together in my favor. And I just want to let you know how much I appreciate you all.
Amanda, I hope you will be my friend forever, omg, I am so glad I met you, like you don't even know. I feel so happy having a friend like you to just come up to and be myself around. It's amazing and you are amazing. You are such a sweet and lovely girl and everyone needs to know that about you. You deserve every good thing that happens to you. Whenever you are upset I feel like I have to try my hardest to help you out, because that just /does not/ work with me, okay? So I may get super annoying but deal with it. :3
Ann, you are seriously a mother to like half of the kpop community now and it makes me laugh. I remember the first time I ever walked into on of your chats and then it just became a regular thing. You are so talented, sweet, and hardworking. I wish for so many great things to happen to you and your family and your business is BOOMING because you are so awesome but just remember sometimes to take a deep breath, and relax. I'll come with a frying pan towards anyone who gets upset and tries to work my Ann too hard. ;____;
Missa, hmm...how do I even begin to describe Missa? Missa is flawless. I hear her hair is insured for- Okay, on a serious note...LOL. I do love you, okay? Our friendship just kind of /happened/ and that's the joy of it. You are super funny, AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL, and a great friend to have. I always want to listen to your problems and want to take them all away and make you happy, even if I fail, and I want to laugh and act like I have the IQ of a banana with you when that calls for it, too. We need to start having regular .gif flirt session again because uh we haven't had one for quite a few days LOL. All in all, our friendship was just kind of out of the blue but even so I am super happy. <3
Michelle, okay gurl listen. I shouldn't even include you because you're a rl friend but we don't even have time at school to communicate because Senora yelled at us OTL and we communicate mostly on tumblr now, anyway. haha. I just want to let you know that you are so lovely and amazing and I could not be happier you became one of my friends. Being the only sophomore in our whole freshman ROTC class had to be a shock and tbh I'd be shy, too, but I'm glad we got you to peek out of your shell and become friends. I tease you from time to time but I never mean it. You are one-of-a-kind and super sweet and I really hope you find a perfect Korean man so we can both have one and we can live in apartments right next to each other in either Busan or Seoul and you'll go off to work as an English teacher and I'll go off to work as a secret agent and our husbands will go off to work being in a kpop group and we will all live happily ever after. LMAO
Madie (1), omg people with your M names LMAO Madie, I don't even know if you get on tumblr much anymore so I'm going to link this to you LOL I remember popping into your ask because I was like OMG A XANDERETTE AND SHE IS MY AGE AND OMG WE ARE GOING TO BE BEST FRIENDS. I trolled you super hard all the time and tbh it was some of the funnest stuff ever. We don't talk as much as we used to *sob* but I have your Skype now so I will, indeed, proceed to bother you all the time. haha. You are so super pretty, super awesome, and an amazing friend to have. I hope real life is treating you well because I have yet to get one LOL
Maddie (2), ohhh the many friendships Ann's chats create. LOL Okay first of all you are so adorable okay and I hate you for that because when I try to be cute everyone just cries, okay. And for you it just comes naturally. And for real, you are also super sweet. I can always depend on you to try and comfort me with anything as I always do for you. I feel oddly protective over you, like if you are upset or something that I HAVE to help. And also, we always have the same problems. Always. forever waiting for Super Show US dates. x_x And we also have the same bias groups so I want to reblog almost everything you post LOL. Anyway, I am so happy you became my friend...how anyone would want to be my friend with how obnoxious I am in tinychat I will never know...OTL
Maggie, okay I really shouldn't like you because not only do you have that Korean man you also have Asian food and uh...I don't. But for some reason you are too awesome to not like. If I wasn't as into Korean culture I would probably be like a mini you, tbh. You like /exactly/ the same Western stuff that I do. Paramore fangirl FOR LYFU. But srs. Don't be freaked out, but you remind me of a more awesome older version of my Western self. And hey if it means I'll end up like you...at least I'll have the man, right? HAHA TOTALLY KIDDING. I lurve you Maggie. You know why? because you are down right osm. And I'm not letting you go back on your promise.
Marisela, okay first of all if you don't end up an idol and give me backstage tickets I AM GOING TO BE SUPER UPSET. haha. you are super talented in many ways, and I try my best not to be jealous. ;___; #1 fangirl for lyfu. not to mention how lovely you are. double whammy on my self-esteem, tbh. LOL. I haven't /really/ gotten to talk to you in a while and that makes me kind of sad-faced. Expect me to invade your ask box soon, but tbh I'm almost falling asleep here. AND I THINK I STILL NEED TO FIND THOSE JONGKEY FICS. SOBSU. I'll find them eventually. My fanfiction bookmarks went [poof] but I'll go looking again, just for you LOL ;D
And this is not nearly everyone I would like to say kind words to, but for now this will do.
If I have ever popped into your ask box, replied to a message, encouraged you or thanked you or anything like the such, I want to say thank you.
Thank you, for always popping by to comfort me and support me and remind me that I am beautiful and that people care for me. It means a lot. You are such a lovely person.
Sarah, first of all you have an OSM name (haha) and you are also so sweet. I haven't had an actual conversation with you in such a long time either, so expect that to change, too. Remember what I said about not giving up if it gets rough. I will always care. Let me know if you ever need ANYTHING.
