It's Normal for Best Friends to Kiss Your Period Cramps Better, Right?
Hyunjin x f(reader)
M mdni
Genre: Slice of Life, Friends to Lovers; suggestive, fluff
Summary: When your period is worse than normal, the last thing you expected was for your best friend to up and kiss you when his emotions spilled over. But kiss you he does; and it's the catalyst you both have been needing for a long time.
Warnings: explicit language; period pain, unrequited love realized, light make out, mentions of past drunken blabbering, teasing friends that mean well, mentions of wishing for handjobs and sex.
a/n: idek what this is, except for some sort of comfort during a rough period.
As always, no reposts, no re-uploads, no translations etc etc. Thank you.
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Pain. Torturous pain.
The pout on your face deepened as you squirmed while clutching at your abdomen. A groan pushed out of your chest as you tipped your head back on the back of the couch. Trying to focus on the scene on screen in hopes that it might distract you even a little bit.
Periods suck. The ones that are worse than usual suck even more. The cramps that are not only whole body, but you feel it as if it doubles and triples; through your bones, your muscles, your hair...every molecule.
There's one upside, however. And that upside was currently clattering something in the kitchen while he attempted to gather snacks that he knows you tend to crave at this time. His soft voice let out a string of swear words that make you giggle for a few moments. He's trying so hard to make things better for you; and somehow that seemed to frazzle him today.
You don't understand why he's nervous. Normally he isn't nervous around you. Not during periods -outside of the first one he attempted to take care of you, that is. And not even when you had the flu and he took care of you then, too.
The man in question rounded the corner into the living room. His socked feet padding across the wood floor as he made his way back to you with a basket in hand.
Hyunjin lowered himself gently onto the couch, as to not disturb your comfortable position. Well, as comfortable as one can get when it feels like you're being hammered to death while simultaneously being split apart into trillions of pieces. His big eyes were wider than usual, but he clocked you staring at him, so he blinked and put on a cute expression instead. Trying to ease you more.
The basket of goodies was set at his side; his hands now free so that he could wrap his arms around you in comfort and soothing. It was nice despite the pain. But being in Hyunjin's arms was always wonderful. If only it were in a different way. The way you secretly kept in your heart.
Hyunjin is your best friend. Has been since the moment his pencil broke during class freshman year of high school. He'd frantically looked for another, with no luck in finding a spare. So you offered him one of yours, your eyes connecting with his, smiles appearing on both your faces.
He wasn't exactly the type most paid attention to back then. But you always found him beautiful. He wasn't popular, and he didn't seem to be aware of just how good-looking he's always been. A bonus to you, because his heart -which he wears on his sleeve even to this day- is the most beautiful thing about him. How deeply he feels and expresses himself. Which sadly is how you're completely certain he's only ever felt friendship with you.
"What movie do you wanna watch next?" His soft voice caressed your eardrum. His plush lips so unnervingly close to the side of your face while he attempted to peer into your eyes.
You shrugged in his arms, and he snuggled you closer before pressing a gentle kiss to the side of your head. He's affectionate and loving, and you love that about him. Yet sometimes it made your heart ache extra hard. Worse, perhaps, than your cramp situation you're in right now. Because you wish he would kiss you full of love in a romantic way. Not because he felt bad that you're in pain. You want so badly for him to kiss you for real....and mean it.
"You know the drill; if you want anything, just say the word!" He saluted cutely, and you replied with a smile that made him pause before pulling you even closer.
Now you're resting partly on his chest, lounged back against the couch. You're turned slightly towards him so you can rest your head better in the crook of his arm. And you can't help but glance up at his beautiful lips and wish to taste them. Well, again.
Hyunjin noticed your distraction wasn't coming from the tv at the moment. His hand smoothing your hair before rubbing gently at the small of your back.
"Would a massage help?" He asked, before kissing your hairline.
No it most certainly would not. Because his hands moving on you would cause other problems. He caught the tiny pinch between your eyebrows, eyes moving back to gaze into yours a moment later as a pout of his own settled onto his handsome features.
"You always let Felix give you massages." He grumbled, voice low and quiet. Petulant.
That's because Felix, your other best friend, isn't Hyunjin. He can touch you and it only feels like friendship in the form of brilliant sunshine. When Hyunjin touches you, your heart and body betray you faster than your mind can catch up and stop them to remind you it's not happening like that. That it doesn't mean the same to him as it does to you.
You chose to ignore the statement, turning your attention back to the screen. It was one of your fav scenes that you really like, so you were able to focus in on it. Which is why you missed how close his face was getting. Barely aware, until his hand was on your lower abdomen. At first he simply pressed on it to help relieve the pain. Then he started rubbing in subtle back and forth motions.
It was all you could do to hold still. To not think of other things. Your lashes fluttered as you tried to keep your attention on the movie. But his soft, warm breath was on your face while he studied it. Making sure this was okay.
When you didn't react further, he rubbed the small of your back. Trying to relieve any amount of your pain he could. But that large hand kneading gently into you was making your brain fog. Your breathing shallow. It relieved the pain a bit alright. Along with turning you on.
You suppressed an embarrassed groan, biting into your lip. If he keeps this up, you might slip up. And you can't afford to do that. You don't want to jeopardize your friendship by moaning and asking for other things your heart and body desired.
Just then, the door to the apartment rattled; and in walked Felix, Seungmin in tow. They both had laden arms with bags overflowing held precariously as they kicked out of their shoes and wabbled towards the kitchen.
"How's our girl?" Felix asked as he passed by. The question was directed to Hyunjin, but his gaze was scanning your current state. A sympathetic pout slipped onto his face when he took in your miserable expression.
Seungmin tutted and kicked his foot up to bump Felix's ass.
"The same as when we left two hours ago. Now get moving. These bags are heavy." Seungmin sent you a soft smile, nodding at you as he passed by. Then gave a squinted look at Hyunjin. Who shrunk beside you and burried his face in your hair.
What was all that about? You shrugged it off, and listened to Felix and Seungmin deciding what to make you for dinner.
Another wave of more intense cramps struck, and you writhed into Hyunjin, groaning about how bad it hurts. Hyunjin's arms wound tighter around you instantly. Then he petted at your hair, before caressing the side of your face.
"I wish there was something more I could do to help." He murmured.
"You're doing great, Hyune. Cuddling is a type of medicine, ya know."
An airy, half hearted and fully distracted laugh brushed on your hair.
"Then I'll continue to be as much of a help as I can be. In any way I can be."
He kissed the side of your head again, and your eyes slipped closed. He's not making this easy. When you looked up at his face, he caught the misery in your eyes and read it all wrong. His gaze echoed a hint of your pain without fully understanding it. Three of his fingers slipped under your chin and rubbed at the underside of it, much like someone would do to a cat.
"What is it, hmm? Are you sure there's nothing else I can do?" He asked. Oh that pout. Those eyes. His voice...
The words kiss it better came to mind; and you choked on them as you tried to swallow them down. His eyes searched yours.
"I hate this. I hate that I'm not doing enough."
"You're doing more than enough, Hyunjinnie." You pointed out.
"Yeah?" You nodded, and he settled more into the couch, flattening himself, in full on pout mode now. "Well I want to do more."
"Like what?" You giggled, thinking the question was innocent. That nothing would come of it but more pouting and whining on his end.
Hyunjin sat up slightly, eyes brightening as they searched yours again. His fingers returned to the underneath of your chin. Two this time; and angled your chin up as his gaze fell to your lips.
"Like this."
With no further warning, Hyunjin kissed you. Full on kissed; lips pressed to yours in a way that felt desperate and raw. Then tapered off to a softness that made the world around you spin.
Hyunjin slowed the kiss to a stop. His lips no longer moving with yours. And pulled back with sheer panic written all over him.
"I-I'm sorry, y/n. I'm so sorry. I should have asked. I should have..." He trailed off, running a hand frantically through his hair. Which flopped right back into his beautiful eyes.
"Why?" You asked. The rest of your words getting stuck in your throat.
He blinked a moment, not making any eye contact as you watched his thoughts rushing through his head.
"I..." he started, then swallowed hard. "I dunno, y/n. I...I-I mean you look so miserable, and I want to take that away. I had an urge so sudden I couldn't stop myself." He answered, then scrunched his eyes closed tightly, a pained expression on his face.
"Why are all of our kisses never in normal situations." You heard your rhetorical question sneak out against your better judgment. Almost a whisper, but he caught it all the same.
Hyunjin's eyes slipped back open, and his gaze was instantly holding yours.
"What do you mean?" His voice was subdued. Controlled, cautious.
"The first time you kissed me was during that drinking game Felix suggested. When it was time for Channie to kiss me, you pushed past him and grabbed onto the sides of my face and kissed me instead."
Hyunjin's eyes glazed over with the memory. Looking mortified and embarrassed.
"That was...Well you see, y/n...he wasn't going to kiss you sweetly and innocently like Lix...."
"And like you did?" You reminded him as simple as that. Of the way his lips had crashed to yours and kissed softer than you expected he would after that. Similar to moments earlier when he did something just like it. And he had kissed you much longer than was necessary for the game. Just like he'd kissed you longer this time.
Hyunjin blinked at you. Unable to find his voice for several moments. Then he opened his mouth, only for air to release out of his lungs in an odd but cute sound.
"Now you kiss me because I'm pathetic to you, sitting here in pain like this."
His eyes shot through with a firey blaze of defiance.
"That isn't it." He quietly replied. Voice tight with an anger you didn't understand.
"Hyunjin...please explain it, then. Why do you only kiss me when it's in odd situations? Why don't you kiss me in other ways?"
"Like what?" His voice was gruff as he retorted.
"I dunno...like...like..."
"Romantically?" He filled in the words you wanted to say with your heart, but your head had stopped you.
The two of you stared into each others eyes for a while. Then he took a deep breath and ran his fingers through his hair.
"I get it. Y/n. I'm so sorry. I've been a coward. I know. I know it's wrong of me to only take advantage of situations like these. And I'm sorry. I really am." His eyes closed as his head tipped back out of what appeared to be regret and frustration.
"Then why don't you kiss me in other, more preferable situations?"
The words caught you both off guard. His eyes snapped open and over to yours.
"What?" He hesitantly asked. As if your next words might crush him.
No way you were brave enough to follow up on that.
"What did you say?" Hyunjin shifted beside you; coaxing your face back towards his when you tried to turn away.
You just ruined it. You're sure you went too far. It's too obvious now. You can't take any of this back.
His gaze was softer than you had braced for. And they settled on your lips way longer than a friend would normally stare at their friend's mouth.
"Are you saying what I think you're saying?" His voice was as soft as his gaze; and it wrecked havoc on your heart.
Hyunjin tipped your head, angling his own.
"I want to kiss you again. I want to kiss you all the time, y/n. All the fucking time." His gaze moved over your features, lingering on your lips before he stared into your eyes at last. "May I kiss you whenever I want?" He asked in a voice so soft and quiet, you barely heard what he said. It was enough. And so was your response when you nodded again.
Hyunjin leaned back in, closing the distance between your lips and his. He kissed you long and imploring. Raw emotions seeping out of you both, going right into the kiss. He held you tighter. His strong arms winding around you like you're his, and his alone. And when you sighed at the thought, he paused the kissing to rest his forehead against yours.
"I've wanted to kiss you for so long." He murmured." Rocking his forehead subtly against yours. "So long. Since the day you handed me your spare pencil, and you smiled at me so sweetly. I almost up and kissed you on the spot."
The soft smile playing on his lips melted you further. He really wanted this for that long? Just like you? How foolish you've both been. If one of you had been brave enough to say something, or start something sooner...
"I didn't know how you feel about me. So I hesitated and shoved it all down. All this time. But, y/n...I mean it. It's been a struggle to be near you all these years and not grab onto you and kiss you."
"Then don't hold back anymore." You softly replied, caressing the side of his face.
His eyes sparkled with love and mischief.
"Oh I don't think I can now. I plan on kissing you all the time." He pressed back in, kissing you as if to help seal his statement in a stamp of promise.
The kiss stretched on, turning slowly more heated. Though neither of you fully let go. Not just yet.
A quiet snicker reached your ears; so you peeked over at the direction it came from. All the while Hyunjin continued to kiss you like no one else existed. Ignoring the two men smirking at the scene they were currently watching with smug expressions.
"Finally." Felix sighed in relief; and Seungmin chuckled.
You pulled away from Hyunjin's lips; but he wasn't ready to stop kissing you. His mouth trailing kisses along your jaw.
"What's finally?" You asked, embarrassed to be caught like this.
Of course Felix knew how you feel about Hyunjin. And clearly he knew how Hyunjin feels about you. It comes a bit late, the realization that he's been purposefully and strategically placing Hyunjin in situatuons to get him to break down and make a move. For both of you to hurry up and get on with it.
"He thought the kissing ga-uh, drinking game would do the trick. Alcohol to loosen you both up, and jealousy for Hyunjin as he had to watch guy after guy kiss the woman he's in love with." Seungmin answered, then laughed quietly and whispered about both of you being idiots.
Hyunjin glared at your shared friends and then returned his attention back to you as he kissed his way back to your lips. Placing a long kiss there before kissing rapidly on your bottom lip while keeping his lips practically attatched to it. He kissed again. Paused. Once more. And then sighed as he nuzzled into your neck.
"Yes, finally." He said in his usual dramatic flare while holding you somehow even tighter.
"Maybe we should leave them to it." Felix sounded like pure mischief as he suggested it.
"I'm on my period." You reminded them, and both Seungmin and Felix gave you an awkward smile.
"Oh right." Seungmin muttered.
Hyunjin sighed dramatically and nuzzled into your neck more.
"We should take this slow, right?"
"If you get any slower you'll both turn into glaciers." Seungmin joked, causing Felix to sputter a laugh and point between Seungmin and you and Hyunjin holding onto each other.
"He's got a point!"
"Well, the earth needs more glaciers anyway, doesn't it?" Hyunjin quipped back, glaring unimpressively at them.
"Yeah, but you're both melting anyway. And like you can resist this turning into a full blown pire of passion now that you finally can be with her romantically. And dare I mention sexually." Seungmin retorted. Even drawing out the word sexually for great affect on emphasis.
Hyunjin gasped and clutched you to himself.
"Knock it off! I want to treat y/n with the respect she deserves!"
"Yeah, yeah. You can do that." Seungmin's smile said it all. That smirk spoke the unsaid things. "But you've also been waiting years. Both of you have. What if y/n wants to jump you as soon as she's recovered from her period, hmm? Will you tell her 'no baby, oh we cannot! We must think of your virtue!'?" Seungmin clucked his tongue. "I think not."
"Hey! Who says I'll jump on him the first chance I get?!" You jumped into the conversation at hand. Pouting petulantly at Seungmin.
Felix cracked again, laughing harder.
"Yeah right!" He slapped his hand on his leg and then cleared his throat. "'Oh Felix. I love him Felix. I want his huge hands everywhere. Aha, I'm so drunk, hehehe, so drunk!'" He imitated you from a conversation last year when you'd been drinking together at a bar. "'I love him, but I also waaant him! Like want him so baaad! Have you seen him when he's caught in the rain?! Or sweating from jogging?! God, there are times I just want to kiss him and let him finally know how I feel. And then we can...aheheheheeee.'" Felix bowed, his little display of exposing you done, and Seungmin erupted in laughter.
"She said that?!" Felix nodded, pleased with himself. "See! You both want it. You can't say you'll take it slow!"
"I can!" Hyunjin was full on angry pouting now. You were just mortified for being exposed like that.
"'Lix! Lix!'" Felix slurred, perfectly imitating Hyunjin when he's drunk. "'She's so smart and so pretty! She owns my heart, you know! And her body!'" Felix groaned in further imitation, and perfectly captured the way Hyunjin pouts when he's drunk and put out about something. "'Can you imagine her small hands on my hard dick? Well I can. In fact, I picture it all the time when I'd rather be with her than using my own hand.'"
Hyunjin stared, not even blinking, not believing his friend had just betrayed you both that way. The two men standing near the tv just cackled.
"You both are ridiculous. You could have been married by now." Seungmin said, laughing further once he'd dropped that on you both.
"Married..." Hyunjin whispered; clutching you like he might grab you up and make a run for it.
"That isn't fair, Lix. You either, Seung." You pouted at them. "We were drunk. It doesn't mean we will actually go too fast. And don't put ideas in his head."
"Too late." Hyunjin muttered near your ear. Clearly still thinking about you in a wedding dress and on his arm. Of newlywed life together.
Felix and Seungmin laughed even harder, and you knew it was all a lost cause. Now that things were out in the open, it was only a matter of time. Hyunjin will take you on dates. You'll eventually have sex. Probably sooner than either of you originally intend. And in the not too distant future, a wedding would likely take place. Because Hyunjin is staring at you like you're the world and he's revolving around you. And that's exactly how you feel about him.
"Hand me that box of peporo." You ask Hyunjin, and he lets go of you only to reach for one of the treats he had placed in your care basket.
"Are you craving? Does it hurt more again? Can I make it better?!" Hyunjin fired off his questions, placing the box in your waiting hands. "Is your period flaring up worse?" He looked so worried, it was so sweet.
You took the box and turned it over and over in your hand.
"No...I want to try to throw this at those two idiots."
Felix and Seungmin pretended to be frightened and then laughed together again.
"Maybe I'll take it back from you and go whack them with it a few times." Hyunjin muttered.
"Good plan. I'll stay here and wait for you." You whispered back, conspiratorial.
Before Hyunjin could make his move, Felix smiled softly at his friends, now clearly a couple. Even if it's unspoken.
"Now that my work here is done. I'll go get that dinner going." He nudged Seungmin and nodded to the kitchen.
"Yeah, and I should help." He spoke in a softer voice, too. Smiling one more time at the two of you cuddled on the couch; and then followed Felix back into the kitchen.
It wasn't the day you had expected when they showed up. Hyunjin pampering you and Felix making brownies like usual. Seungmin being his usual puppy self. It was all that, yes...and so much better.
Hyunjin placed his hand back on the small of your back and gave it a light massage. A soft smile on his face. He rested his head against yours. And then turned to kiss you on the corner of your mouth.
"Let's just go our own pace." He softly suggested.
You answer by turning your head to kiss him. And then sigh out a contented,
"Yes, let's do that."
