in general its been really complicated talking coming to terms with the unhealthy family dynamics that resulted from our trauma because my siblings were always my best friends through our insane childhood. we all grew up to have similar politics and the same dark and chaotic sense of humor and we understand each other really well on a basic level. and it turns out they all want me to be happy and even struggle with similar things so when i set boundaries it actually helps all of us and it doesnt make me some horrible traitor. and we dont even have to suffer in order to spend time with each other. huh!














