Hello! I didn't want to leave my account and my past art floating around all on their lonesome, but I also know that I can't totally put majority of my time into drawing as much as I did. I'll be focusing on my studies, just like I have done these past months, and will continue to focus on that and other things that could prevent me from managing everything I want to manage if I neglect them.
That being said, I have always entertained doing commissions here and there, or simple requests. And I still want to draw and share my niche ideas with all of you! So I will be posting irregularly or regularly depending on which is more doable at the time - fan art and maybe even some original art, no matter how niche or nonexistent the fandom is or how late I am. Drawings from now own might be more on sketches than full illustrations, so I hope that's fine.
Thank you to those who have been checking around! I really appreciate you taking a bit of your time to look at my creations.
So the other day, I played a game called My Child Lebensborn and I just have a lot of thoughts and feelings about it. It’s kinda intense with its themes and story (TW below) so if you’re in a good headspace right now, I really think that you should play it or watch a let’s play on YouTube. It’s like 4-5 hours long. The game is on most consoles as well as android and iOS. It costs $3 and a part of that goes to the Children Born of War Project so while I’m usually pro-piracy, this is one game that I really think you should not pirate. I played the iOS version which you can download here.
The game is described as a “dark tamagotchi” where you play a struggling single parent in 1951-1952 Norway and care for your young adoptive child (either the male Klaus or female Karin, you choose). Klaus/Karin is a “Lebensborn,” an Aryan child born out of wedlock of a German soldier and a Norwegian woman during the occupation of Norway in WWII. You have to balance caring for the child both mentally and physically, work, investigating the child’s origins, and keeping up with local news. A lot happens to the child over the course of the game that you can’t do anything to prevent, you can only impact how the child sees the situation and how they may react to it. It’s a really good and educational game about an aspect of war that I wasn’t really familiar with until now and while it’s not really the most “fun,” it’s a very fulfilling and engaging experience.
The story is basically entirely told through text and mostly happens to the child outside of the home so most of the disturbing stuff happens off-screen but it’s still heavily referred to and feels like a punch to the gut.
If you have a hard stomach and think you can handle it, stop reading this post now and go play it as I’m about to give trigger warnings that could spoil the game and then go into my personal thoughts about it.
Trigger warning for: references to war, bullying, assault, poverty, abandonment, references to Nazism, attempted murder, being forcibly tied up, being urinated on, ethnic discrimination, cruel family members, cruel teachers, and child sexual assault.
Direct Spoilers below
So I don’t think I ever want kids IRL but the way that Karin had MY WHOLE HEART and I wanted to be the best parent ever for her 🥺 like that is my DAUGHTER and you WILL NOT TOUCH HER
Karin baby you deserved so much better I’m sorry I could only do so much for you 🥺🥺🥺
AHHH I DIDN’T BUY THE FOX TOY IN TIME IT WAS GONE BEFORE I HAD THE MONEY FOR IT FUCK
I wish I had chewed out the grandparents more during that visit with them fuck them
The bullying was so fucking cruel like what the hell that’s a child who didn’t ask to be born under these circumstances have some compassion!!!!!!
The way that I clocked almost IMMEDIATELY that Karin was sexually assaulted since she didn’t want to be touched (I don’t know where I learned the warning signs but I did)
I wish there was an option to fucking murder Mr. Solheim
I choose to believe that Karin and the parent ended up somewhere good where people were more tolerant, I have to believe that
I chose to investigate the parents as much as possible, be as honest with Karin as I could, and tried to keep some hope and cautious optimism alive in Karin while still being sensitive to her feelings and not forcing her when she didn’t feel like doing something and I was very satisfied with how things turned out, she trusted me fully by the end
I wish that Karin was more trusting of others by the end but I don’t know how much control I had over that
Here are my chapter complete endcards to further describe the choices I made:
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So I was in the mood to do some crossover requests with the MCL twins and these are all of them!... Except the Fran Bow one, but I couldn’t think of anything sadly.
