#knee saga

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I just wanted to say, I've recently experienced a pretty serious injury, and this might be strange but reading your documentation of your own experience with knee saga is really helpful with the emotional processing side of things for me. I have surgery tomorrow but I'm feeling calm, and I know the road to recovery will be long and might not ever end, but I have a life none the less. Thank you for sharing these bits of your life.

it's not strange at all! that was half the intention of my public venting!!i'm so glad that my posting could bring you a bit of calm in the storm but i'm so so sorry you're going through this ;-;

but stay optimistic and determined, even if you have to fake it in the mirror. forcing your brain to believe in and be hopeful for the future is the best chance you have at a greater recovery!

make sure your village knows what's coming bc you'll need that support, and if they need a break or they fall through i'm absolutely here to catch yr venting on a soft and understanding pillow. vent like mad online like i did! maybe it'll help the next person like mine helped you <3

also you get to use this meme now :D

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found out yesterday that MY SHATTERED FEMUR NEVER FUCKING HEALED so my NEW ortho is removing the plates and screws and shoving his thick juicy rod in my bussy (bone pussy)

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I am in pain but this pain is not forever. The surgery will work and my femur will heal. Everything works out for me. I will be okay. Things will change and things will be different but I will be okay. I always end up okay.

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What did you do to break your FEMUR??

I was carrying Charlie so when i tripped over a painting (that i was supposed to put up DAYS ago...) i couldnt catch myself with my hands. all 190lbs of me landed on my bad knee, crunching the shit out of my femur.

dropped baby, but miraculously there wasnt a single injury????? they checked everything but theres no pain to the head, no bruise, not even a bump. i guess i took all the pain lol.

id take it again. i was so scared the whole way to the hospital. this is gonna be such a mental trauma to me.

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i really hope these are pools of blood gathering under the bandages and not like..... literal holes in my leg

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oh my god just saw what happened to your leg and I’m so sorry. Injuring an area that has already been injured is my worst nightmare. I’m glad that your baby is okay, but still I’m so sorry that this happened to you. I hope recovery goes as well as is possible for you

if anything, its a lot easier the second time around lmao! we know the drill, we have the supplies still, i know the exact cocktail of meds that will dull the pain but wont knock me on my ass drooling, and my attitude is way better about it!

but we definitely need some new therapy because we r Properly Traumatized by dropping Charlie lol. it blows my mind that shes completely fine. it doesnt make sense and its making us both scatterbrained and paranoid.

recovery will be way quicker, but the recovery percentage is way worse. only a 70% chance of regaining full previous function compared to 85% last time. and i never regained full previous function last time loooool.

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Yooo do you have a big scar on your leg? Is there a cool story there?

i sure do! you can find it in /tagged/knee-saga

(or u can use the chrono link to see posts in chronological order instead of reverse)

edit these hyperlinks dont work on mobile lmao wtf. ill just tag this post w it instead.

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if you don't want to talk about it that's coolin but how's your leg doing?

it hurts so much bc of the cold weather!! i get tired rly easily. wrinkly ass old white ladies who could finish a marathon before i could reach the back of a walmart give me a stink eye whenever i use a blue space because either i’m too young or too fat to ~deserve~ one go fuck yourself gertrude i’m exhausted.

but my cane doubles as a beatin stick so i am at least mildly protected and that makes me feel safer.

oh also fuck people who park in front of ramps curbs are my enemy and they hurt.