#kookybura

[quirkybird-a-singing]

So I know I’m kinda a downer sometimes,

BUT

I’m graduating tomorrow and I DIDN’T FAIL THE CLASS THAT I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA FAIL AND MIGHT GRADUATE WITH A 3.0 OR AT LEAST A 2.9!!!!!

[quirkybird-a-singing]

So yesterday was awesome. I memorized half of my lines and discovered I’ve been readmitted to the school I was supposed to go to.

Cut to today - I need to memorize the rest of my but don’t have the energy or motivation to, feel like nothing will ever change, am positive that I won’t get to go to college next year bc I haven’t written an essay in a long time so why the fuck should I apply for scholarships when I know that it will come to naught and I won’t win any of them because everyone else applying is far more qualified and interesting than I am, am now convinced that I need to stop trying to do social things because I’m a shit person who makes too many excuses and talks instead of doing and is far more negative than positive and never says or does the right thing which leads to people ignoring me which leads to me feel like shit, so ultimately I only deserve to live the life of a cranky hermit because that’s all I am.

Thanks so much, brain. Thanks so much, mental and emotional disorders. Now kindly go fuck off so I can do shit and feel okay at the very least.

[quirkybird-a-singing]

My name is kookybura and I just realized how awful and out of control my internet addiction is. 

[quirkybird-a-singing]

Concept: Me

Concept: Me, working hard.

Concept: Me, getting my breaks as a writer and actor.

Concept: Me, becoming rich enough to leave home and buy some place to stash my stuff while I travel the world.

Concept: Me, finally learning to love myself and grow as person and learn everything I wanted to learn about myself and the world I share.

Concept: Me, being constantly surrounded by like minded people who share my passions and love for the world.

Concept: Me, spending my days travelling endlessly, working mostly as a successful contract freelancer writer/actor, and teaming up with the companies I love to help the world.

Concept: Me, learning how to do really cool stuff, like surfing and krav maga and being super good and poker.

Concept: Me, climbing every peak to the top and being literally on the top of the world, even if briefly, until the next time.

Concept: Me, loving myself, my life, the world, and using my art and words to bring peace and prosperity to the masses.

Concept: Me. Successful. Happy.

Concept: Me. 

Adventure is out there.

[quirkybird-a-singing]

Happy birthday!!! I found the perfect gift to make for you, but I'm sorry I didn't get it finished in time. 😢 I hope you've had a completely fantastic day and that your year will be fantastic as well!! ❤

Aw thanks :) I’d still love it if you ever get it done :D My day was pretty swell, thanks. I’ve got hopes for the coming yer :D Reapplying for school and found some relevant scholarships and stuff, so fingers are crossed :D :D 

[quirkybird-a-singing]

I think I have too many shows I’m catching up rn/planning to catch up on:

-Elementary - 2 seasons to go

-Vampire Diaries - All seasons to go

-Outlander - All seasons to go

-Xena - All seasons to go

-Merlin - All seasons to go

-Reign - current season

-Sense8 - All seasons

-Probably more 

My God I need a life.

[quirkybird-a-singing]

Note: If you tag me in a post, use ‘kookybura-sing’. If you tag me in the tags, keep using ‘kookybura’. 

End note.

[just-tinkabelle]

kookybura replied to your post “Who would have thought Celtic music was exactly what I need to write....”

Eeeeee Celtic Woman, Heather Dale, Loreena McKennit (spelling??????), Celtic Thunder, Orla Fallon, Meav, Anuna, wooooo

Adding those to my list now. This is awesome!