#kool aid problems

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All these people on my facebook like:

"Look at all these new shoes and clothes my man bought me"

"My princess cut engagement ring is so sparkly"

"Selfies in the Mediterranean!"

While I'm over here like

"If I eat another pack of ramen NOW, I wont be having lunch at work tomorrow."

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Note to self:

When someone spends hours talking to you in person, when they didnt have to, about any thing and then goes away DONT BOTHER THEM WHEN THEYRE NOT HERE Dont make simple How are yous? Into THREE PARAGRAPHS OF FEELINGS. Its just going to make you look desperate, and even if you are because you have a lot in common but a lot of differences, it might be overbearing. Dont rush it just because youre afraid theyll forget you are here.

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Despite being away, I thought a lot more people would unfollow me. So: Update! Good and bad.

-I moved 1000 miles away.

-I finally saw my mom after about 3 or so years.

-My friend/housemate got a bf that is emotionally and mentally abusive.

-She choose her two month relationship over my gf and I.

-We were kicked out about a month ago.

-Now back in a place of our own.

-I have a great job at Radio Shack now.

-And I now have the Enterovirus, which is keeping me from said work.

Again, for those who remember me, who stuck around, or didn't even realize I was gone for so long, thank you. I know it's hard to keep in contact with me, but back when all that was happening, not even Tumblr could keep me smiling. Final Fantasy 14 was pretty much my only distraction.

I love you guys.

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CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT "SOUL EATER NOT!" IS ALL ABOUT?

I'm rewatching Soul Eater anyway...

But then I see this...

WHAT IS LIFE 

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I LOVE MY FOLLOWERS.

And I have missed them greatly.

;///////////;

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o__o

Idk what's going on, but I'm amused.

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To all who currently read my KiGo fanfiction.

I want to let you know that while in process of finally finishing up chapter nine, my computer failed and I was forced to do a system restore. I was unable to save my progress, the only thing saved were my gifs, which I had previously transferred elsewhere.

I'm devastated and scared to rewrite something as I had put a lot of effort into this one chapter. Five pages that took me so long to perfect were lost. I am beyond heartbroken. (I know it doesn't seem like much, but it literally took me months to write, and I also lost my notes for future chapters on top of it)

But I implore you... I am going to do my best to rewrite, and continue to write again. Please be patient just a little bit longer... I want to write for you, I just need some courage in myself.

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You can stare at me all night.

THEN I SHALL.