#kosmic rants

[lordkosmic]

Fucking tired of this shit.

I really shouldn't be as pissed off as I am about some passing comments made to me about the fact I follow "The Zerker meta" but the fact of the matter is that you play how you want.

Someone else using stuff you don't like? Fine. Whatever. Don't be a righteous ass about how you play as if it's the "right way" or the "better way"

Dunno why this left such a shitty taste in my mouth but it's definitely putting me off wanting to join certain friends for dungeons/fractals now. :/

And the number that I feel comfortable playing with is slowly dwindling....

I just came to play and relax, not deal with your shit about how I play.

((Disclaimer: Yeah, I use zerker armor. It works for me. Don't care what armor you're wearing. Does it work for you? Fucking perfect. End of story.))

[lordkosmic]

Veteran Dungeons are a fun challenge and all, but finding a patient, helpful group to run them with is tooth-grindingly frustrating.

I play MMOs to have fun times, not to stress about gear and have people yelling at me in party chat. It’s left such a sour taste in my mouth, I don’t think I’m resubbing…

[lordkosmic]

So on top of having piss poor timing in bringing up things. I may have just alienated a friend due to my infinite stupidity.

I never meant for her to feel bad or that it was in any way her fault that I had come to my decision.

So now, I just feel like shit. I’ve said all could and I dare not say anymore for fear of making things worse.

I never expected things to be easy, I just wish things didn’t have to be this way…

If space and time are what she needs. I’ll give it gladly. I don’t want to lose a good friend…

*head in hands*

I just want her to know it’s not her fault at all. Not in the slightest.

[lordkosmic]

majortechcat replied to your post: A piece of advice I heard a long time ago went something along the lines of “if you need someone else to be a whole person, then you yourself are not a whole person.” Offensive to a lot of people, but the idea is to like YOURSELF first and foremost.

  That's very true. If you depend on someone else for your happiness that's never a good thing. That's just the thing, I'm not saying I need someone to be happy. I don't need anyone else to make me happy. I'm perfectly capable of achieving that on my own, thanks. If anything, I'm more attracted to the aspect of having such a close friend to talk to and interact with on a regular basis. Someone on the same page as me.

As for the self-loathing...well, that's a different story. I don't think anyone else could match my distaste for myself. I challenge you to find someone. Anyone.

[lordkosmic]

Nope. Not Now.

What's this? Sudden desire for a boyfriend? Craving a meaningful romantic relationship? Nope, can't have that shit distracting me and making my depression worse. *holds knife over heart* Let's cut the bloody thing out and be done with it.

[lordkosmic]

So as it turns out, the wi-fi refuses to cooperate with my laptop at the student rec center. But it works fine for my other friends. I wanted to jump back into Guild Wars 2 with my friends Arrgrhdhdhdhdjdjdj