#kuro-kun

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[iheihairu]

Talking about the kenference. What kinda book do you think they would all be reading together? In like a weekly reading session of sorts. I am thinking maybe something like "How to Manage Multiple Personalities: A Guide"

LOLL

Well. They're all very stubborn. They hate being told what to do and they don't particularly like the idea of changing their ways. It's their body after all, they don't understand why these other guys won't just let up. It's not like he did a good job with his time or anything, so he should leave it to me. I may not have done amazing but I will! I don't want to leave things in his hands, who knows what will happen.

That way of thinking makes self help books REALLY hard, because they all want to be right and differ juuuust enough to butt heads. They can't settle on a host, nobody wants to listen to anybody, why should I work with you? Look what you did with your time.

However, they all like to learn. They also all like to Figure Out. My answer to this question is nonfiction (how-to books, historical books, political books, etc) and mysteries!

Haise isn't quite into super mopey gorey stuff like Kuro is, so finding the right mystery can be tough. Add a good romance or some lively enough humor and they can find middle ground!

I like to think of them in a book store or library, looking over hundreds of books trying to appease as many of them as they can. This one's too childish. I don't like the tone of this one. Another one with a ghoul plot twist, yawn. This one has romance! Is there a sex scene? Because I don't particularly want to read that - especially not with you. We're all basically the same guy! Don't make it weird! ...But yeah I don't really want that either...

They... Try. They do better when they don't address the elephant in the room

[yanimefany]

I tried to draw Kuro again because there are hardly any fanarts for him. But for some reason his hair was incredibly difficult to draw! Also, I believe that if “Shounen Maid Kuro-Kun” was a complete series with real plot and not just an OVA, it could have actually been successful.Now it has turned out as a meme yaoi everyone is scared to watch.

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By Kuro-kun

[choc-chino]

I dreamed

that I was going back to the reunion. It was raining hard, and you were standing alone at a corner, watching the drops pouring down from the sky, while I was behind you and watching you.

All of sudden, I have the courage to ask whether you had listen to the song I covered for you at Valentine, and you nod, told me that you understand my feelings. I thank you for that and felt very happy because you do listen, even though I never thought you’ll do that but look you did. And I hold your hand with both of my palms because oh gosh you’re so warm and the outside was cold and I want to save your warmth in my memory. I told you I want to have more fuel, because every time we meet might be our last meeting and we are growing up.

Truly, we are. You’re making more friends, more open, and more cheerful each time. You’re the funny, caring, loving, handsome guy who were able to ignite the fireworks inside me and maybe other girls who had crush for you, yet you’re still the same introvert thoughtful you who I love so much until now.

I dreamed of you who open your heart for me, because it was truly our last meeting and you kiss me on the lips under the rain so that nobody sees us, because you’re so tall and your back was so wide compare to two years ago so that you can cover me in your embrace. We’re both lonely, you know. Admit it. Together, we can be something more, that’s for sure.

But that was merely a sweet dream, uh? Sometimes, I just want to be in the same class with you, taking a seat beside you, and feel content with—just—that.

I still love you, today too.

[choc-chino]

Reminiscing

So today, a friend of mine mentioned Major Arcana in her fanfiction, and all of sudden I had this urge to browse about tarot.

Accidentally, it reminded me about a tarot thread in Infantrum where I was once asked about my love life. I never believe in divination until now, and I never will—but then again, why I can’t give it a shot? The post date was in May 2012, so basically it’s been two years since I love him. Before I realized, I started to stalk him (again) and … there goes this feeling.

I don’t know why I felt this pain again. Then again, I’m a masochist, right? This kind of pain will never kill me.

That time, I asked the thread starter about how to deal with my feelings. She said that I’m unable to press down my bubbly feelings, so it’s normal if he knew my crush too fast. Moving on is not impossible, but I’ll need time. And if I want to give him something, I have to do it without any fear. Just… give it because I want to give.

This, of course, reminds me of my cover for Haiboku no Shounen on my Soundcloud for this year’s Valentine, how I tried to make it as perfect as possible (even if in the end, it’s still so ugly) and gave it to him. Later when I asked the “dear” thing on Ask.Fm, he wished me to be famous at Soundcloud.

Well, that means he listened.

And it’s more than enough for me—because that means he knew my feelings for him. Love is a casino, right? No matter how you gamble and what game you play, in the end it was decided by mere luck. I was the loser, yet I don’t want to let go that fast.

Back then, when I was able to meet him regularly, I was a real fool. I let my feelings out, I hurt his pride more than I supposed to, I do things that embarrassed him, all I do could only make our distance became farther and farther. I was the real stupid in love, and yet only now he act nicer to me. I appreciate it, of course, it gave me power to face my days.

In the end, I am such a fool.

But still I dreamed a lot about him. About what if me and him got into the same small class, getting closer, starting new but keep my feelings the same to him. One day he confess that he fall for me too, and we have a long-lasting relationship at college.

It has always been my sweetest dream, which happened a lot.

If I cannot have him in the real world, at least let me have him here. In my dreams. Even if he acted nice to me only at Ask.fm, even if all he could remember about me were only fanfiction and intelligence, even if… even if…

Yes, there would come the time when I cannot make more memories with him. There would come the time when I would never see his face in reality anymore. There would come the time when our communication methods begone, all of them, and all that remains were memories. Bittersweet memories.

Yet I still choose this path.

Hey, Kuro-kun, I love you so much that my chest hurts.

If miracle does exist, let’s go back to that time when we were still in the same class, and let me fix everything; you don’t even have to love me back.

[ask-kuro-kun]