#kyadonut

[shirakako]

You did- hugs?...

My mom.

[shirakako]

      ...What are ye makin' me watch...

[shirakako]

Me: WELL NOW THEY 'NOW!

Let dem shiiiiine, let dem shiiiiiine~

Friend: W-What? Wtf are you doing?

Me: 'can't hold those ideas anymoooore...

Let dem shiiiine, LET DEM SHIIIIIINE~

My mind's blurred 'cos of this freakin' shower!

I

DON'T

CARE

WHAT THEY'RE GOING TO SAY!!

Let them fuckin' shiiine--

...Adorable ship never killed me anyway~

Friend: Elsa...

Are you okay?

Me: Of course.

[shirakako]

[I feel so down… I love her too much. I do not sleep anymore. I can’t think anymore, I just want to cry, I mean I try to be optimist, I feel alright for a short time by looking at funny things and then I feel too bad again. I’m hurt. Really. I feel like if she just is leaving. I can’t hold it anymore. Is it just for now or forever? I look at my phone and send messages, but it is just so useless. I must be only annoying her. I should just keep my mouth shut before do another mistakes…]

[shirakako]

Internet friendship, basicaly it start with nothing, just two peoples who meet and start to interact together. Then, for some reason, more strong link start to come out. And sometimes, when you really do like this person, you want to meet him/her in real, to be with this person you like so much… But you know very well you can’t, there is this glasse that prevent you, the distance too. And sometimes stubborn one decide to fight destiny, they decide that despite everything that could stop them, they will reach their goal, they will see this person. Maybe it will take some time, maybe they will have to sacrifice a little, but whatever. Meet an friend is priceless. However how high can be the price of your ticket for their home. Money can’t buy true love, friendship, first love, whatever, it can’t. There is doubt, fear, sacrifice for see him/her but honnestly, it is nothing. It is priceless to speak with somebody every days, and then one day, stand in front of this person. Live with him/her for a little. Have the possibility to touch and hug this person in reality.

I can tell. I lived this wonderful experience, I meet an wonderful friend that I will always love from the buttom to the top of my heart, I also meet an funny/cute and really interesting familly. I hear an foreign language that I now really plan to learn, I saw an new big city, an awesome one by the way. I know that I will never forget this, I will never forget her, even if one day our days would have to get separate for an unknow reason, I will never forget you. Never. Maybe, even probably, I would have other friends named Anna, but you will remain THE Anna. Though I already said it, but I seriously don’t plan to let you go, never. We will be childhood friend, I swear. I won’t let destiny get us separated so easily! Never! I know sometimes we fight, most of the time for silly thing, and sometimes we end up both crying (cos yeah, I might say when I am hurt, I don’t when I cry, but I do cry, tbh I always cried when you were starting to cry) during the night, still both (or mostly you) trying to find a way for that thing become better again. And we always do. Then we always end up like immediately sleeping, relaxed. It might do not be real good moment when you are actually living them, but those moment made us stronger, it made us understand each other better! Maybe you got some doubt sometimes, let’s be honnest, and I confess that sometimes I did too, you know it. But now I trufuly believe in my dream, in our friendship, in the fact that we will see each other again one say, maybe soonly, maybe later. But I do. Because I love you, we promised to be honnest to each other, there it is. My real feelings. I really love you honey.