Virtual Idols, Our Future Love
iii. “One carries these concepts, dreams, further, into a general notion of _invisibility_ or _transparency_ - our tendency towards the imaginary, the recognition of our non-existence in relation to dark matter, neutrinos, radiations, the long passaging of time. The folowing took these ideas to the limit; beginning from Kyoko Date, from Diki, one can find a dispersion of identities across spaces, times, and physics.
a. "shimmering ontologies of transparency"
accordingly, shifting, looking around, coming to mind, intervalling, diagramming our always-already-having-disappeared, entering into knowledge of our ghosthood,
| dream / real / constituted virtual / the gnawing of dark matter | - symbolic - imaginary - idiocy of the real (practico-inert) | imaginary / as if | imaginary
this is the ontology of transparency, the veering among dream and real, among the constituted (programming virtual) and the pervasion of particles and dark matter. and this is also on yet another layer and yet another interpenetration, a veering among the symbolic and imaginary, coupled with the idiocy of the real. and on yet another layer, the as-if, opening into the troubled problematic of the infinite, veering through the imaginary - and yet, on still another, the imaginary, as if there were, as if an itself, as if we were dissolving, constantly, within our very constitution
so moreso, the desire to be transparent as well, already-ghosting against earth and sky, already in the process of dissolution, emptiness to emptiness, slight translucency at the edges, peripheral shadows - both towards eternity, both towards death.
and towards lassitude, languor, the transparency of reception, opening. and that recognition that we may have been elsewhere-born, hardened, weighted with the world, foreclosed - and here, opened, delicate, we can hardly believe it.
to be transparent after death resonates beautifully with me, annihilation to the limit, an awaiting of particulate matter, diffused harmonic peaks. and to write the phenomenology of transparency, to recognize we have never been alive in this life, is to achieve a subtle transcendence by identification; it is not the Other which greets me throughout the day, but others, innumerable totalities, swarms, sentiences, obdurate and inchoate matter as well. it is a strategy for living, embouchure of chaos.
my recent texts, taken apart, reassembled, produce sprays of micro-organisms, neutrino showers, virtual pair creations, dark matter sputterings. their argument is in the form of fugal repetition, fugue states, meanders among those sayings hanging in the still warm air of a sunny afternoon. one can hardly argue among the sweet and sickly smell of leaves and stems ripening in the humid air...
http://www.alansondheim.org/proposal/3.%20avatars/kyo.txt.pdf