Why I’m ia
Hey sorry I haven’t been on much, I’m still very much in love with Rhett and Link and all you lovely people. But I got to the point where my life was revolving solely around them and the mythical beasts. My real life conversations were affected as I had nothing to talk about but GMM and fanfics. I neglected cleaning and doing things I should have been doing. My depression was better but I was fixing it in a temporary and not healthy way. Rhett and Link mean so much to me, as do all of you, the thing is no matter how happy this all makes me I need to be the reason I’m happy and not pin it on Rhett and Link or any of you to make me better than I was. While I thought this would help I’ve still fallen behind again on chores. I realized that my support system is my mom, brother, Nicole, and y’all and that just those first there people could’t help me out alone either. I’ve been very closed off from the fact I’m not trying to get better on my own and depending on others to “fix” me. Just know that starting now I’m gonna try my damnedest to make myself happy on my own and not put all this weight on others while also acknowledging I still need my support system, y’all, to remind me I’m not doing it totally alone but that I’m not making y’all pull all the weight. My phone screwed up a week ago and I couldn’t bring myself to write it out anyway. The first step to any recovery it acceptance of what you’ve been ignoring, in this case my habit of expecting others to “fix” me and make my depression and other issues disappear without pulling any of the weight myself.
Just know that I’m actually gonna try this time and to keep this promise like i should have the last time. I love y’all all and I miss my friends and I’m so sorry I pulled away from everyone and didn’t say anything.