Letter #176:
Third time to write something for you here and maybe the last. I’m afraid enough for what might the consequences I needed to face if I tell you this personally. You know what, this time I won’t say anything about how I feel for you, how and when did I start to fall, how I wish to get back everything we have before, how did I miss yous so much, or rather say ‘us’ (not literally ‘us’, but you know what I meant). As what I’ve said, I won’t mention about those things because this time, I just want to say thank you.
Thank you for at least giving me a chance to know you. Thank you, it’s amazing how did my everyday went right because of you. Thank you for letting me in in your life, for giving me a chance to comfort you every time you are broken over the same girl and sometimes I wish I was her, and oh.. Thank you for letting me feel that I was once special for you. That’s enough, highly much appreciated and treasured, no need for you to like me back ‘cause in the first place, you didn’t know anything about I feel. No need for me to hate you, I knew it wasn’t your intention and damn it was not your fault. There’s nothing wrong with you, it’s me. From the very first start it’s me.
I don’t want to ruin the friendship we have just because of my feelings, not this second time around. I want you to know that I don’t regret meeting you. I don’t regret falling for you. But this time I want to say goodbye. This is where we’re about to end, we’re almost in the finish line. Goodbye my-so-called kuya. Don’t worry, I will keep the memories we’ve shared at each other.
Waving you a sweet goodbye, Ms. Un’s
P.S. Please do take care of yourself.