had I had the guts I would have said ‘meron’ when Melai asked kung may problema ba tayo. I felt betrayed if not used on what you did, which was why I distanced myself from you and refused you pay for my meal you insist on paying b’cos you won on Biotech’s writing contest. I didn’t know why you had to hide it from me, well it felt and seemed to me at that time you somewhat did b’cos you only told of it to me after the phone call telling you you’ve won. And then comes my case of sposed plagiarism. Thank God it didn’t reached OSA which I shared none of to you b’cos I felt I couldn’t share anything to you. When I got home that Saturday from case presentation you were at the dorm and I spoke none to you and change my clothes and run around campus to St. Therese. My delayed of an academic life weighed down on me and I felt really betrayed. From then on I couldn’t look you in the eyes and share anymore of my time with you. Now I realise that the one time you sms me to borrow my laptop and I wasn’t able to reply b’cos I ran out of load, but you knew my password, so you went on ahead was the deadline for the contest. You apologised after when I got to the dorm and said it was urgent so you had to, I said it was okay. It was okay then but now I realised you didn’t fully trust me to confide that the urgent thing then was your entry. I am sorry I bitched on you seemingly after the phone call from Biotech esp the time when there was no class due to bad weather and I thought you had other friends/course mates that had told you already so I made no effort to tell you. You went out and I thought you were just goin to buy food but learned you went all the way to your dept just to learn classes were cancelled. You rushing to take a bath should have hinted me but I preferred to be a bitch. I couldn’t stand talking to you anymore. I felt distrust and betrayed. And my academic problems topped it all. I wanted to say sorry for the longest time now but can’t quite gather the courage and composure. I’m sorry. However I just couldn’t trust you anymore. I went frequently to Manila every weekends I can b’cos it dawned on me I couldn’t stand to be around anyone who doesn’t trust me. I built my walls higher and you just stopped associating yourself to me too. So I took it as a sign, to move on. I just really want to apologise for what went down. I bitched and spoke none of why so I’m really sorry.
I just really want this out of my chest even if you don’t get to read it b’cos you don’t tumblr.
-We-used-to-be-friends