Late night post because I can’t sleep and I’m emotional. Photo is from when @sam_i_am2424 and I went camping a few months back. . Recently I’ve been really struggling with the fact that I have no friends here. I’m not a “sociable” person by any means but I need deeper connection with people. I need someone besides my significant other to talk to, connect and vibe with. I really struggle making new friends. It’s something I’ve never been good at, so I became good at being alone and exploring by myself. But here I am in this new place and I’m so desperately trying to find other people to connect too. Besides my girlfriend, I am alone here and for the first time in my life, I don’t like feeling that way… I’ve felt this way before, I always overcame it with hiking or some type of adventure. But here, I don’t have my mountains (which our my home) so I’m struggling to find my place. I am beyond lucky to have met the love of my life, and to be able to experience this beautiful and amazing and crazy life, especially with her. But sometimes, your heart aches because of reasons you can’t control. I hate that I can’t shake this feeling. I hate that I feel this way. I hate this pit in my stomach and chest. End rant. #raw #mywords #stpetersburg #lakemanatee (at Lake Manatee State Park)