I've been questioning my orientation...
I had gotten very attached to a friend in the past to the point of wanting to be extremely close physically and emotionally. My emotions were so intense, I had thought maybe I had a crush.
Upon much needed self reflection, I realized I was not romantically infatuated. Infatuated? Yes, most definitely, but as I thought about it more, I just intensely and platonically loved, admired and deeply cherished my friend. I wasn't comfortable with the idea with being romantic partners nor having a serious romantic relationship, but why else would I feel so strongly that I want to be by his side for the rest of my life or feel comfortable letting him be close to me in ways I wouldnt let anyone else be?
As moronic of me it is to realize so late considering I understand the concept of strong platonic love, I finally understand my feelings. I don't believe I only prefer masculine presentation either after giving it some thought. My friend happens to be masc and another friend of mine was simular, and because I admired them both, haven't felt attached to feminine presenting people and hadnt understood my feelings, I had thought perhaps I was into masculine people. I don't believe I have a particular preference nor do I feel romantic attraction to any particular gender. Being Queer in general is much more accurate.
In conclusion with my current understanding, I have heavily intense feelings of wanting to be close, even to the point of getting intimate if intense enough, but the more I honestly think about being in a romantic relationship I feel wildly uncomfortable. I am more built toward qprs and best friends, and finally understanding that feels so wonderful. I feel so free. :)