AN: in hounour of it being 4 years tommorow. yay!
I love him with all my heart I really do.. But being in this relationship I feel like Im constricted in some kind of jail. I feel like we cannot be free inside this relationship, we can't do anything without having to deal with media and management and what fun is that?
We fought for almost 4 years to be happy and I'm pretty sure we are fighting more to be happy than actually being happy ourselves. I honestly don't want to break his heart but how can I be myself in this. I'm tired of hiding who I am and what we are. I am Louis Tomlinson, I am gay, and I fell in love with my best friend Harry Styles. But it's like a sin to fall in love with your friend but it's like I'm gonna rot in hell especially because he is a boy.
Everyone has come up with there conclusions wether this 'thing' is fake or real, yet no one knows the truth. Tomorrow is our 4th year anniversary and we discussed this and we do think that tomorrow shall be the day to tell wether it's a thing or not, I hate that one for a fact we are lying to our fans, and secondly, we are again caught up in
this jail of love and emotions and actions. I want to be free and embrace that I love Harry, and that he is my one and only and only I can share intimate moments with, no one else!
- Next Day -
@louis_tomlinson: me and Harry would love to make an announcement today , so if you'd like to know click this link n it'll lead you to the live show announcement. xx
I know the tweet will definetly stir things up between the fans and I'm gonna love scrolling down through there replies.
I'm currently getting my hair done by Lou, and holding Harry's hand while he's getting his outfit prepared. I know he is really nervous just by the way his grip is on my hand, It's very loose, and sweaty.
"Don't worry babe. everything will be fine! And even if it isn't, I'll still be here okay? I love you."
"Okay... I love you too Louis"
and than it was time to go on.
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"Hi guys, How are you loves?"
"Well we have a very big announcement to make and many people have said such assumptions and some of you guys are right, you have been waiting 4 years for this and it's done and over with me,
Me and Harry are actually a couple"
I said as I got off my seat and sayin Harry's lap to give him a quick snog, as I pulled away I kept my hands wrapped around his neck and jus looked him in his eyes, I gave him a sweet smile and he retuned one as well but with a bit more nerves added in, I whispered to him a few sweet nothing's and finished it with a peck on the lips. I than places my face next to his and gave him a slight squeeze just to reassure him.
He needs to know that it's okay, and that I will always love him.... And that we broke away from this jail that we were in.....
We. Are. Free.