#late much

[shu-icide]

I’m sitting in the bathtub listening to nat king cole and it hit me why I dated a guy LAST YEAR for like a month. Ok.

[midnightknightress]

( i think i’m three days late but) Happy outer science day!

Also, happy b’day Miku!

[nathancykes-blog]

[twocontroversial]

I don't know what I'm doing yet...#FYI

[the-gunmaker]

intellectandwill replied to your post:"There's my darling!" ((lols forever))

what the hell I just saw this omfg

w o w

[soniabuki]

im watching game of throoooones

[avaseofwords]

365-Day Challenge

I'm doing these randomly just because:

46. What is your favorite movie? What is it about?

Pinjar. It's about a Hindu girl who gets kidnapped by a Muslim to avenge old family rivalry but he ends up marrying her and liking her (in that order) and when she has the chance to return to her family, she ends up staying with him. It's an emotional film. 

47. What kind of person attracts you?

A Good-natured person who cares about the Qur'an and Sunnah. Someone who is honest and responsible. 

48. A problem that you’ve had.

Fatigue.

49. Someone/something you miss.

My friend who moved to Cali.

50. Someone who fascinates you and why?

My Qur'an teacher Ms. Nabilah. I can't imagine her ever entertaining a negative thought about anyone for long; she's so nice, so gentle and loving. 

51. Who would you love to trade places with for a day and why?

Someone who lives in Saudi, because I wanna see what it feels like to actually live there. 

52. What is your most treasured item?

My Islamic Studies books and my hijabs.

53. Your biggest insecurity.

Haha, that doesn't belong on the internet.

54. Something that you want to do before you die.

Go on Hajj, doi. And mayyybe skydive?

55. What is something that makes your heart break?

When I see kids wasting their lives away. 

56. Something that you’re extremely afraid of.

Being alive at the time when all the scholars die and having no one to answer my Islamic questions.

57. What food are you craving right now?

Pina Colada smoothie. 

58. What was the last dream you remember about?

Omg, just this afternoon I had a disturbing dream while taking a nap. Don't even wanna talk about it.

59. A habit you wish you didn’t have.

Procrastination. 

[ssfranci]

It's happening again

Not being able to sleep and for the few hours I do manage to get are short and choppy. I don't get it, but hey, at least I'm not getting nightmares. I usually close at work too so by the time I get home I'm exhausted and just want to close my eyes and rest, but my body's been thinking otherwise. 

As I've mentioned before on my previous blog, when I can't sleep (which is often, people are probably sick of me talking about it all the time...orz) I feel somewhat jittery, but a dull kind of jittery. I also feel this pressure near the center of my chest that makes it somewhat hard to breathe, like a heavy rock is sitting right dab in the middle. And you know that grogginess you get from pulling an all nighter? That feeling where your whole body is just pushing and running on empty? I feel that too. It's always the same, I get so tired but I can't seem to do anything but just wait. 

I got up and walked out of my brother's room (he lets me sleep on his bed when I come back home) and found my brother still up and just told him I couldn't sleep. My brother doesn't say very much so when I told him of my predicament he just offered to bake cookies. He's a good kid, my brother.

Sad once school resumes again and I'm having nights like the one I'm having tonight, there won't really be anyone there with me physically that I can have for company without me feeling like a bother. 

There's also something about knowing someone's still awake when trying to fall asleep. I don't know what it is, I can't explain it, but it's comforting. I wish there was someone I could just hit up in the middle of the night without it being troublesome.

I'm sorry I can't sleep like a normal person and I'm sorry I always talk about not being able to sleep.