#lavwin

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A realization

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luz is in sweatertown call back later bye

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Hi! I love your art so much! You're my fav lunter artist. It's all just so full of heart and soul and CHEER!! This is a little late, but I saw your ask post where you said that you like non-canon ships better, so I wanted to know what your faves are!!

THANK YOUUU you are so sweet!! <33

And it is very true hahaha, I'll list some of my faves for ya! Honestly it's hard to pick only a few lol

Lunter (obviously), Amillow, lavwin, Willuz, Gusvee, aaand Brischa!!

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amillow in the Time Hollow AU is just a little fucked up and evil. (read: extremely fucked up and evil)

cause it's like, they're in loving relationships. with people who love them back. 'cause Luz and Hunter both love Amity and Willow so, so much. they have so much love to give, and they give so much of it to them.

but them there's that little part that knows they don't get all of it. they can't get all of it. no matter how much they want it, how much they need it, they know they'll always be number two in their lives. never number one.

because number one in hunter's life, is luz. and in luz's life, number one is hunter.

and it hurts.

and the worst part is, they can't even blame them. they realize that both luz and hunter went through something traumatic together, something so, so awful, that truly nobody else could ever understand, except each other.

as much as willow and amity give to hunter and luz, as much as they stay by their side, holding them as they relive memory after trauma after torture, laughing with them, crying with them, doing their best to give them happy memories -

hunter and luz will always seek out each other first. because they're the only ones who understand what they went through.

and it hurts.

and maybe it's selfish of them, to want all of hunter and luz for themselves. to want to be that number one. they should just be happy that they're on that list at all! that they're loved by them, that even with how scared, how hurt they are, they choose to be vulnerable around them, they choose to love them!

to even insinuate that they're jealous is like throwing the love they're getting back in their face! of course they understand why hunter and luz are so close, why they can barely stand to be in separate rooms from each other. it's fine. it should be fine.

but they are jealous. and they could never truly understand.

and it hurts.

and maybe it's one night too many, where luz and hunter wake from their too short rests, kicking and screaming and hurting, lost in the throes of their nightmares and memories.

one night too many where amity and willow try to calm them down, breathing with them, holding them, desperately trying to calm them down, and of course none of it works.

only when luz and hunter come together, one hand resting on each other's chest, the other holding tightly, feeling the erratic, rhythmic pulse of their hearts, reminding them that they're here, that they feel okay.

one night too many, of amity and willow, leaving them alone, so they could come back to themselves, knowing that they weren't the ones to bring them back, were almost never the ones.

and it hurts.

and maybe it's one night too many, where willow and amity are left separated from their partners, stranded, unable to help them, that they turn to each other.

because, just like hunter and luz, they are the only ones who can understand each other.

they're the only ones with partners with the trauma they have, the only two people who went through what they did. the only two who are second in the lives of their partners, and the only two who would say that's okay.

the only two who can admit to each other that they're jealous, and not feel judged for it.

and maybe they can find comfort in each other, for just one night.

and it hurts.

and they feel angry, for believing that they're not enough. guilty, for insinuating that hunter and luz are not enough. shame, for trying to find comfort in places other than their parters.

relief, in the fact that it works.

and when the morning comes, and luz and hunter find them, having come back to themselves, they smile. they grin and tease and grumble and say finally, because they're truly happy for them. and they have so much love to give.

and yet they still don't believe they deserve it. because they're selfish, and jealous, and still want more.

and it hurts.

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this is kind of a weird post? idk. it has to do with the future of my time hollow au so if that matters then here's this? (I'M NOT DISCONTINUING IT I LOVE THIS SERIES TOO MUCH i am just having some thoughts about some things I wanted to change, and I just needed to get these thoughts out into the void so people were aware, and so I could actually maybe go through with them)

(also if u do care about it please read all the way to the end so i can properly convey what i'm trying to say as well as what's changing, cause if u stop halfway thru then you'll probably come away with the wrong conclusion)

so I started this AU when I had just finished Owl House. I had not yet really gotten into the fandom, and I was still in the throes of the finale. because of this, I hadn't quite yet developed MY actual sense of what I specifically loved about the show (instead of just loving all of it [which I do love a lot of it]), as well as not specifically developed my own HCs and chartacter dynamics.

now that time has passed and I have been a part of the fandom for a while, I HAVE developed a sense of what I specifically love about this fandom, as well as the stories, themes, HCs and dynamics I want to explore deeper.

all that is just kinds backstory to how I have rotated these characters in my mind, and to give some context to where this change is coming from.

the actual change: I will likely be transitioning the sibling hunter and luz dynamic into a modified lavender winter dynamic with amity and willow, and non-romantic hunter and luz (that bit is important).

when I first started getting into the fandom, some of my first fics i read were sibling hunter and luz. I still love those fics, and tbh I still absolutely ADORE sibling hunter and luz. but, I think for the story I want to share with time hollow, i don't think the sibling dynamic works as well as the lavwin dynamic.

btw when I say modified lavmin, I mean it's pretty heavily modified, at least for the purposes of this series. Hunter and Willow are romanitc. Amity and Luz are romantic. Amity and Hunter are not romantic. Willow and Lus are not romanitc. Luz and Hunter are not romantic. They are not platonic. They are not in a QPR. They are not in a secret fourth thing, but a secret fifth thing.

there are two main reasons for this change. one, is that I actually love lavwin in general. i love poly ships and i love messy ships and i love being able to go in deep with character dynamics and and explore those relationships deeply and changingly.

the second reason: its so titan-damned MESSY. it's fantastic! there are so so many dynamics to explore with Hunter and Luz being a secret fifth thing instead of stricly familial. And the way their closeness can interplay with Amity and Willow, either as jealously or care or anything else, and those two maybe finding comfort in each other too, it's all so deliciously messy and I loooove it.

so what's gonna actually change: basically nothing! This was never a romance focused story, and while Lumity and Huntlow were always gonna exist, now they just exist within the context of a messy lavwin. and honestly, hunter and luz were already a secret third thing in this series, it's just now not codified as siblings anymore. it's also not gonna change their relationships with anyone else, like King, or Eda.

maybe there'll be some tumblr posts, or some oneshots that are more lavwin focused, but realistically not much is gonna change. It's just in the way that I've been developing the story, and rotating the characters will have this trauma attachment flavour to it.

i mostly just wanted to get this out there so people could understand where I'm coming from, cause I've been going back and forth on this 'change' for a while, but I realized that if I;m making a series that I don't enjoy, I'm not gonna make a good fic at all. and i think this will make this series all the better for it.

thanks for reading all the way thru if u did <3

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