#lea posts

[queerfakir]

I liked this meme so much I decided to paint it. Who framed Roger Rabbit style breaking bad tutu crossover. You see it.

[ID: the “I think we’re gonna have to kill this guy meme” with Jesse pinkman and princess tutu. Jesse is painted in a more portrait like semi realistic style while Tutu is cartoony, resembling her on model appearance from the show. Jesse says “yo I think we’re gonna have to kill this guy Princess Tutu” with his hand on Tutu’s shoulder, and Tutu responds “damn.” End ID]

[aspidities]

Hey pals!

I’ve been taking a prolonged break to give myself a little mental health vacation over the holidays because that was some dark times for me, folks. But I’m back now, clean house and clean head, been walking and drinking water and sleeping right and eating better, so I’m starting to get back on the horse this week.

It’s been a very rough and long December, but January holds new, better things. Reptile projects I’ve put off for years are now almost done, my original work is getting polished up for posting, and this is the first year I’m making all of my income from writing alone, which is a massive dream come true...even if 2020 was a nightmare just to get there. I might foster a dog, I might hike part of the PCT, and I might be ready to date again. I might be talking to someone new already now, and she might be a very sweet, very pretty, very welcome surprise. 😏🥵🥰♥️

Shake out the cobwebs and dust off the floorboards because better things are on their way. I believe it and I know you believe it too.

[parkhabits]

Hi Everyone! 

It’s my first time doing this but now that the semester has ended and the holidays are dwindling down I just wanted to take a moment to say thank you! This blog has reached a big milestone (for me at least lol ) of 1, 140 Followers! My mind is boggled but my heart is so full. Whether you have followed for my writings, my low quality gifs or videos that I post (LOL) or maybe even just my reblogs and hashtag yelling haha I just wanted to say thank you for supporting this blog. It’s been less than a year since this was created but to have such wonderful support and even some kind messages sent I am extremely grateful.  I’ve even made some pretty great friendships ;) ANYWAYS. I’m hoping everyone has a wonderful end to the 2017 year and a HAPPY NEW YEAR. My 2018 year will be filled with more writing (and updates), all the kpopping and more haha.

Also! I just wanted to give a huge shoutout to my mutuals some of you who i’ve talked with quite frequently (got wrecked with), the ones who i’ve been tagged by or tagged you, and even the ones I see on my dash and in my activity log (I see y’all ;) ) Please y’all check the out if you haven’t done so already! 

(In no particular order & if i’m missing anyone I’m extremely sorry!) 

@got7nyeong  , @jinyoungslegs , @youngjaesloudlaugh , @parkjlnyoung, @changbinct , @mon-xtra-7, @jaefuck, @markjinsonsworld, @defbald,@kpop-wetdreams, @yue2428, @maydayjyp, @iridescent--wings, @kpopchangedme, @gsvnrewind, @jaybleep, @jiminstopbeingahoe, @tuanmarkers, @7for-7, @youngjaessoulmate, @jagimark, @nyeongificent, @solastiaficrecs, @glazedbangtan , @your-not-so-ordinary-fangirl, @ivegot7scenarios, @jimins-crooked-tooth, @gyeommark, @markstunafish, @taehyungshipthrusts, @shootfortheestrella, @parkjinyoungpuppy, @wonderful39530, @sneakpeakofmymind, @alonzojamie89, @mochimork, @hypetae, @cuddletuan , @okjb, @kissmyars, @captainwhysoseriousfan, @beautifulloser92, @fishiepower, @myjinyoung, @peachyoppa, @day6daily, @s-eoulmates, @jinyoung-ssi, @superfanboy19, @knockknocksoosthere, @markiepoohismysunshine, @foreverwithmark, @uniquesauresrex, @starlove727, @oppaitsjustmystyle, @kunpimoody, @neverevergonnaletbtsgo, @different-or-weird

An extra BIG shoutout to these lovelies :)

@markwhyareyousodaddy, @soybeantree, @jj-nyoung, @jacksinn, @chim-chimmie, @icarusjjp, @taetaetuan, @fairyyeols, @royalkpop, @cecenybabe, @imdifferentshadesofpurple

As well as to my networks! @kwriterskollection, @got7snet, @7ornevernet, @thekpopnet, @ahgasenet, @got7hyungnet

Lastly,

@sapphirebluemt I hate  love you. Who knew sliding into each other’s DM’s would be the greatest thing that happened to us and if it wasnt for this site we wouldn’t be snapchat best friends who talk to each other on the daily. Even though I yell at you for bringing me down the hellevator, you’re my go to girl to get wrecked with. You / our husbands are the only constant thing in our lives especially when we go through so many dilemmas on who the rest of our bias list is. Thanks for getting me LMAO 

@got7-markjinson SOULMATE/SISTERWIFE where do I begin? Our love for Jinyoung brought us together and our LOVE hatred for JB made us closer. Thanks for sharing in our “cheat days” with me and for understanding the struggle we face because of our wrecker. I find it crazy how we both have/had similar biases but ofc that’s what makes us soulmates lol I can’t wait for the day we get to do the JJcross. (Gotta start practicing) love you! :)

Once again THANK YOU and I can’t wait to see what the new year brings :)

With love,

Lea ♡ 

[queerfakir]

Thinking about this post and can we talk about how important it is that fakir was okay with Duck not loving him back?

I think it’s fair to say it’s pretty heavily implied that he’s in love with her, and it’s explicitly confirmed in the guidebook.

While Duck’s feelings for him are more nebulous and hard to pin down, from his perspective she’s in love with Mytho. We as the audience know she doesn’t actually feel that way about Mytho but from Fakir’s perspective everything she’s done so far has been for Mytho. She admitted to him in episode 12 that she had feelings for mytho and there has been nothing to dissuade him from this line of thinking. In fact, he finds her crying because mytho chose rue.

There’s this little moment I like. When Duck tells him mytho has chosen rue as his princess his eyes narrow ever so slightly.

[ID: two screenshots of Fakir from episode 25. In the first he is looking at Duck (off camera) with a serious expression. In the second he narrows his eyes slightly. End ID]

He REACTS to this news, even if it’s subtle. And he doesnt look happy about it. Fakir is upset that Mytho rejected Duck. And this seems so antithetical from what we come to expect from a romantic subplot.

So the girl he loves loves someone else… and he’s okay with that. He never tries to pressure or guilt Duck into being with him. Hell he never even mentions his feelings. She likes someone else so what’s the point. But this never dissuades him from his devotion to her. He doesn’t give her an ultimatum or make her choose. He doesn’t even seem get upset that she loves someone else. Even when she goes back to being a duck destroying his last hope of being with her romantically, even then he never wavers. He wants to spend the rest of his life with her. Whether that’s as friends or as partners or as just a simple boy and a duck, he wants to be with her. How she feels for him doesn’t matter so much as getting to share his life with her.

And I find this such a refreshing spin on tired romance tropes. “Just friends” looms large in our media so it’s lovely to see a boy in the so called “friendzone” who’s okay with it. Beyond okay he treasures the time he spends with Duck. His affection for her doesn’t hinge on reciprocation.

It’s so common for characters in fakir’s archetype to grow angry or sad that they’re not “the one,” often lashing out at the girl who doesn’t return their feelings. But instead we have Fakir who’s perfectly content to stay Duck’s friend. After all, being her friend is a gift in itself.

I just love to see a platonic relationship not treated as a lesser stepping stone to a romantic relationship. Sure, Fakir has feelings for Duck. But that in no way undermines the friendship they already have. It’s treated with all the gravity usually reserved for romantic relationships. They’re going to spend their lives together and whether that’s as friends or as lovers—that part isn’t important.

I’m tired of media treating friendships like they’ve suddenly become worthless when one party develops feelings and the other doesn’t return them. With fakiru, the lovely part is that their relationship is built on such a strong foundation it can stand on its own. We the audience are free to interpret it as romantic, platonic, or something in between, but with any reading their close friendship forms the centerpiece.

[queerfakir]

the duality of man

[ID: Two stylized digital sketches of Fakir from Princess Tutu. In the first he comforts Duck in the lake of despair, saying "Sparkle on it's Wednesday! Don't forget to be yourself!" They are surrounded by sparkles.

In the second sketch, he has his hands on Mytho's shoulders and he tells him "Sparkle OFF it's Thursday. Forget who you are. A dramatic image of fire is overlayed over the sketch. End ID]

[queerfakir]

The most unrealistic thing about princess tutu is that duck was still going on about mytho in season 2. If a morally ambiguous tortured emo boy was down bad for ME and literally died FOR. ME. Well. Let’s just say I would not be lusting after the humanized mop

[queerfakir]

If you think about it the song discord from my little pony fame is a perfect princess tutu song. You know who else is not a fan of puppeteers. You know who else has a nagging fear someone else is pulling the strings. Where is my amv

[queerfakir]

Something I think about a lot is that how inciting incident of the collapse of drosselmeyer’s tragedy isn’t some big dramatic moment. The beginning of the end for drosselmeyer is found in the hours fakir and duck spend searching for mytho. It’s when fakir realizes duck has seen him in his weakest moments. And not despite but because of that she genuinely admired him and shows it through her kindness. All of this is absolutely crucial because in the minutes before Princess Tutu’s impending doom, fakir grows fond enough of duck to intervene in her death. What seems like a filler episode of little consequence is actually what sends drosselmeyer’s grand finale careening off course.

If he had done nothing she would have given her life for the prince, vanishing. From everything we’d seen so far it is in fakir’s best interests to let Tutu die. She turns into a speck of light, vanishes, and now there’s no one left to return mytho’s heart. Fakir is free to do as he sees fit. He can keep stalling the story, let Tutu die in the chapter of his own death and then never flip the page.

But the thing drosselmeyer doesn’t count on is that in the hours they spend searching for mytho it dawns on him that he genuinely cares about Duck. And because of that he won’t sit back and let her die, even knowing he may very well die in her place. This is the first big act of rebellion against drosselmeyer’s story. Instead of simply accepting his fate, fakir does something clever: he twists it. He accepts that yes, he must die, and, instead of trying to circumvent that, he instead chooses to destroy the means of shattering the prince’s heart, thereby saving Tutu and passing the torch on to Duck. His whole life has been about being mytho’s one and only protector, and yet after only a few hours he grows to trust Duck so much he wants her to take over in his place.

And this is where the emotional core of Princess Tutu lies. Drosselmeyer consistently expects his characters to screw over everyone else in favor of playing to their own interests. But a spark of genuine friendship is all it takes to derail everything. Duck chooses to be kind to fakir despite everything he’s done and in turn fakir trusts duck with his life’s purpose. It was never about the grand tragedy or the bigger picture. The true revolution lay in the small moments.