stuck in limbo
"high school is the best years of your life"..... no they're not. it sucks poopy. i feel like that has already been estabilshed for many of us. but i feel like people don't discuss when you properly get out of school and your like "shit what now?"
ok so you don't know what to do so the next logical step, "lets take a gap year, it'll be fun". so you do. then people are badgering you about your plans, and your like, I haven't even planned what i want to do in my future let alone in the next year. so you make a list of all the different possiblitys. au pairing, travelling, exploring and just existing. but the you need freaking money, so you apply to get a job and you only have a little bit of experience. but absoultely no where is accepting you because why take on somebody thats not exactly qualfied for the position. don't take a chance on the new kid am i right?
then you spend your days endlessly thinking in your childhood bedroom, what was i actually meant to do. then you start reading existential feminisim which completely blows your head off of its shoulders. you're stimualtenously trying to recover from every struggle under the sun at the same time. your stuck in your home town with nowhere to go, because you've visited the same parks, cafes and shops since you were a wee lass. nothing excites you. you just kinda float in limbo. anyway. just needed a wee word vom. existential dread sucks booty.