#leccae

[leccae]

Oh the tangled web we weave,

When we lie instead of leave.

You lied to me,

Because you wanted her,

You lied to her,

Because you made a vow,

You lied to a secret,

Because she loves you,

You lied to you,

Because you have to.

Oh the tangled web you weave,

Why do you lie instead of leave?

[leccae]

You broke my heart

This is not a poem

This is not a cry for help

This is not blame

I just need to acknowledge my pain

[leccae]

The hate for myself

Is always indicative

Of love for others

[leccae]

Is hateful love,

still love?

If yes,

Is it better to have loved and lost?

If no,

Does that mean I’m lost?

[leccae]

Turns out I’m not sadness,

In the blackness,

I’m madness,

Called “Alice”.

I don’t need you to tell me,

Who to be,

to drink the tea,

We of three.

You just trick and lie,

Playing good guy,

A false high,

Forced comply.

Goodbye to you, Mad-Hatter.

Don’t flatter,

Just scatter,

Don’t pretend I ever mattered.

[leccae]

Smoke 

made my memory fade, disguised as an aid.

Pills

numbed all my pain, making it all seem sane.

Drink

made me relax, offering ways to distract.

But you.

You make me clean.

[leccae]

At night I wonder

Is it I destroy myself

Out of hate or love?

[leccae]

Free.