My friend made me realise in the last few weeks that I have been disrespecting myself.
I guess I have always been the type of person that likes to work things out, clear the air remove any animosity that may be. After a while of trying you do end up burning out and asking yourself why? What's the point? This person isnt fighting for you, so why are you fighting for them?
I should already know this, but I am glutton for punishment and never learn when it comes to toxic people. I have this passion inside me that thinks I can make them change for the better, I can make them see, I can make things better by making them see sense BUT actually it just makes things worse. People do not want to change unless it's under their own accord.
My friend made me realise you have to accept people for what they are, let them go, if they don't love you, you can't make them love you, you cannot change them and only trying leads to disastrous consequences.
Though I have come to realise this is true, I do believe you should show one and another common courtesy, consideration and some sort of mutual respect by returning a response even if it's no. As I said earlier I should have known better some people just cannot be changed and not everyone is like me.
My friend told me it's time to start loving yourself and stop letting people that disrespect you in your life, you need to realise your worth, and I guess I've always felt I was worth nothing, I punished myself that's why I chose to have these people in my life. As they say you live and learn and it's the only way - Le depart.