#leoraposting

[coraes]

manga: my fwb ichihara won’t let me go // this is the perfect suggestive comm pose imo

[saetiate]

I have never been gentle, will you show me how to be? I think I lost it somewhere between the criticisms and the heartache, I think I learned to become those things in the midst of it, the way air quickens to become a hurricane. Is it okay, that I don't know how to put it down? I want to quiet it too, until it's just my ear pressed against your chest, your heartbeat steady under my fingers. You carry so much kindness, I don't think it's worth you extending it to me, better to wait for someone more worthy, more special, more deserving. I'm too selfish, I don't want to spend another day without you, I would hold you here even if it would be far better to step away from you, to let you live your life without me. I need you to walk away. I need you to walk away because I don't know how to.

— You feel too good and I can't have that.

[coraes]

i think corae is more about understanding than anything. to be known is to be loved. you don't have to act in any sort of way with me. i see you for exactly who and what you are, no facades and no illusions, and i love you not despite it but because of it. you don't have to say what you mean, you don't have to prove yourself or defend yourself or brush it off. i inherently understand. i know you soul to soul.

leora on the other hand is about feeling alive. here is this dark, treacherous world, and here we are at the center of it. i don't know if we can make it better alone but we'll do our best. in the meantime, i want to hear you laugh like that again. i want to feel your smile against my skin, i want us to crack another joke and maybe through that, the light starts to enter. the world does not change in one fell swoop and i know it, we would not know each other as well as we did if i didn't know what you knew. but with your hand in mine, maybe it gets a little lighter. maybe that is worth something (maybe that is worth everything).

[coraes]

leora & the grocery shopping ask game, part 1

shopping cart ✦ who usually pushes the shopping cart? or would you prefer a grocery basket? i prefer a shopping cart and i think it's a good 50/50. i like to walk around and then come back to the cart and then let him walk around etc

bananas ✦ what song are you two singing at karaoke? mm let me come back to this but maybe leather and lace by stevie nicks and don henley

apples ✦ what color represents you? what color represents them? me: purple & blue and leon: dark brown & black. for this selfship specifically

kiwi ✦ what’s your favorite thing about their face? eyes wauh . i love a hair and eyes contrasting colors situation

tomato ✦ what pet names do they use for you? what pet names do you use for them? leon for me: princess, sugar, sweetheart, baby, honey/hun, love. me for leon: daddy (ahem. clears my throat), honey, baby, my love, handsome.

jalapeño ✦ what is your spice tolerance? what is theirs? mine is probably a 6-7/10. his is probably a 5

avocado ✦ what are you and your f/o eating post sex? are you/them cooking or ordering in? despite being fully and completely asian born and raised i am a big fan of bad / americanized chinese food HAHA it's like so separate from actual chinese food for me. so yes either that or actually chinese food. or sushi!! i think we are more likely ordering in (tired after sex) but i think we could cook together a simple little fish / salmon dish where it's seared with lemon, some rice or potatoes, spinach and chutney. beautiful i love that

carrots ✦ what is your ideal romantic getaway? first option is a staycation at a beautiful hotel with a spa package. second option is a cabin in the snow or a room / service apartment like thing at a ski resort where it's snowing outside and warm inside and we can cook or eat downstairs at the hotel and get into a hot tub from time to time

orchids ✦ do you keep flowers in your home? yes! i like to think he gets me them every couple months and i try and help them stay alive as long as possible. sometimes i turn the flowers into other things like dipping them into resin or turning them into hair clips

cupcakes ✦ how does a baking session go in your household? terribly at least the first few times HAHA. the cupcakes are lopsided and the color is off and the bread doesn't rise and yadayada. but we get better. slow learning but we learn. the journey feels lighthearted and fun

eggs ✦ how would you describe your relationship to others? easy and warm and soft and strong. i have both an age gap and not age gap situation with leon separately so i think for the age gap thing it feels a little strange at first, like you don't really know what to say or how to tell people it works. it just always feels safe to exist. it feels safe to be the worst versions of ourselves with each other. good all the time outside of each other and to others only to come home and take each other a little more selfishly than intended. that might be too much information to give someone. let's just go with what i initially said

sugar ✦ what is something that you do (or say) that flusters them? and how do they fluster you? i think we both fluster each other with the daddy/princess thing HAHA. especially because we both use those names mockingly and as a joke-ish at first. like when i'm annoyed at him i'll click my tongue and go "okay daddy listen" and when i'm acting spoiled and how things should go my way he'll drop a "sure, princess, whatever you want". also i talked about it here but he always leans in so close to talk to me. no concept of personal space at all. or maybe it's more like there is the concept and he's invading it on purpose. for me i wear a short skirt or shorts and he runs his hands up them immediately

butter ✦ how do they comfort you when you’re sad? big warm hug from the back and a kiss on the cheek. a little pep talk where he gives me some encouraging advice and reassurance

orange juice ✦ what does a saturday morning look like for you two? i am wrapping my arms around his neck from behind and hanging off of him whilst he pours his first cup of coffee. there's eggs on the stove and i sprinkle paprika in them and they end up a little overcooked. there's buttered toast on a plate on the counter.

[coraes]

keep thinking about this and how the raccoon city incident was in 1998 so this is literally true for leora

[coraes]

i want him i want him i want him i want him. i want time. i want time that we spend in the world together. i want to watch the fog dissipate and the rain turn into a drizzle and for the world to cut through the noise of the rain until it's just us and the early morning cars. i want to feel the rest of his jaw on the crown of my head. i want to know that there is life in both of us and that the world is not perfect but it is worth living for. i want to try again and again, not because i don't know how to stop and not because of guilt or pain or all the mistakes that i have made (that we have made) but because we have found something that has made it all worth it. i want to stop writing poetry for men and male characters. or maybe i want them to at least deserve it.

[coraes]

will you let me trace the height of your cheekbone and learn every scar and tiptoe around your heart until you let me in? would you let me bring you peace, even if it’s just for a few minutes? you and I and this ever-spinning world that never stops even when we beg it to. I know everyone and everything outside is calling for us, I know we have things to do and people to look after. I’ll cup your face in my hand. let me give you my strength, just for today, I think I have some to spare.

[coraes]