#leoxcap

[etherealzodiac]

leo boys like me pretty ferociously and I get to see the egomaniac come out I wonder what it is 

[dinosaurbiscuits]

He would hate me writing this but freedom of speech so who cares. I admit to being high maintenance and I also admit that I have a personal control problem. I am TERRIFIED of what I cannot control i.e., the cars driving next to me on the road, a bird on the path in front of my that's 100% going to fly into my face, the bus at the stop I'm running to that could leave early if the driver was feeling pissy, etc. I have other examples of that, but cleaning is one of them. I get stressed and I clean, upset and I clean, frustrated and I clean OR since moving in with Ross (and more recently) I've got stressed or upset or anxious and then taken it out on him and asked him to do the cleaning (?!) or cleaned around him and then made him feel guilty for not helping me clean (?). Like, I love him for the independent person that he is so WHY my stressed anxious over-emotional brain wants to control how much of the house he cleans idk... ANYWAY so tonight I thought I'd really fucking done it and arguments and controlling behaviour conversation ensued blah blah blah (I say this to refrain personal details it was actually a serious conversation I take seriously but okay) and then I cried and we talked and he was his calm demeanour self and I thought he didn't really care that much because, I mean, to anyone who understands zodiac HE IS A CAPRICORN LIKE C'MON. And not just a Capricorn, but a Cap with a Sagittarius moon. Like no fucks are expressed externally, at all. The compassion is there and he ALWAYS tries with me, the amount of emotional support I need on a regular basis much drain him out and I know that and knowing that makes me love him ever so much more because he's put up with me for so long. However tonight we've gone to bed and he's taken 0.3 of a second to fall asleep and I've left the room and watched YouTube and came back an hour later and as soon as I got into bed he (half asleep/dream talking) got up, said "fuck" out of confusion and told me he needed a cuddle and gave me a kiss. Cheesy pet names and everything, told me to have good sleeps and started snoring again. idk if it's because I'm on my period and adverts about dental hygiene make me cry or whether it's my over-emotional Venus in Cancer but that speaks millions to me. Like, when he's conscious he's so collected and rational but half asleep he just needs a cuddle. I love that. I love him. I'm going to bed really content and happy.