Maybe you're too desperate. This is the SECOND time you're going to prove yourself to me how low you think of yourself is. A little too desperate you are and that's disappointing me. This isn't even what you really want yet you'd go and chase it because you feel like you won't find any better choices. Really? Goddammit, you're amazing and you don't even know how much you're blinding yourself to that truth by relying your worth to other people. Knowing you, that's what you're doing right now. You're scared and I assure you that you shouldn't be.
Something about you that you probably aren't aware of is that you're amazing. Just because that one person doesn't like you doesn't mean that your whole being should be despised. Too much time has been eaten away of you overthinking that. But goddammit, be in my place and you'll see that if I was drizzle, you're a fucking hurricane. Every single hidden thought of yours is a tornado ready to destroy everything surrounding you, but maybe it's been destroying yourself too. Please, I can't just keep on observing from afar and watch you suffer. Suffer alone. Helping you has been stuck on my mind for a week now. You need to wake up from this nightmare you're living in and start dreaming — even if it's alone. Even though no one will always reassure you how you're an amazing person, let me tell you this; You are. No amount of compliments from other people will be able to make you feel happier than you, your own, loving yourself.
Very carefully — it's a slow journey, you'll find your worth someday. Not in the eyes of another person, but in the eyes of yours. A thousand of problems may be corrupting your mind right now, but it's just temporary. Don't let that bring you down because by the end of the day, only you yourself has the choice in choosing happiness. Love isn't something you should rely on for that. Believe me, relying your own happiness and worth to another person will only bring you down more — especially when they leave. Even with that, if you can choose happiness even if a million people are forcing you not to, then fuck, isn't that a trait worthy to love? Really, if you can do that, the rest will come into place. Nothing will be able to stop you afterwards. There will be downs too, but you'll have the courage to pursue your journey even with a few bumps in the road. Cause I believe in you that you can do it. And seeing you not trying to is disappointing me. I know it's hard. But you have to be in a relationship with yourself first, discover yourself and slowly, you'll gain that confidence you'll need in the long run. And I pray for you to read this and start thinking, cause seriously,
You're worth so much more and you don't even know it.
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(there's a small reference to one of John Green's "Looking For Alaska" quotes!)
Note that this was written like 4 years ago? So it sounds a bit awkward? At least imo. This is addressed towards a different person, hence "label" than "for you". Btw! This is for the person whose name is actually within the letter — hoped y'all find it!
