#letztermannsteht

[gebrochener-adler]

letztermannsteht replied to your post “Will you ever be able to fully show another person your flaws and...”

"Roddi, no"

He seems to freeze in place for a moment before clearing his throat. “I suppose I am somewhat of a cynic.”

[gebrochener-adler]

A Consequence of Loneliness (Closed AU)

@letztermannsteht Desperation often drove people to extreme measures.It was all Roderich could think about as he stared at the ad he had put in the paper. Being the CEO of a bank seemed like it should have brought all the things he needed to thrive in life. He was successful in every aspect that most people would consider desirable. There was no shortage of money, avenues for travel, connections to advance himself, or ways he could expand his position. In spite of all this however, the older he got the more he found something lacking. There was a hole in him that he felt every time he sat alone in the high rise apartment at night while staring vacantly out at the city. The more wealth he accrued, the more empty it felt when people spoke with him or asked to spend time. It was clear they only now cared due to his status and yet he wanted some sort of contact. After much pondering, he had come to a conclusion that was most likely illogical and yet he still hoped. If someone was not within his circle of contacts and panderers, perhaps they could offer a bit more in the way of company. Even if it would still be money driven, in some small way it might bring him a sense of connection. This had led to the ad in the paper that he was no rereading and hoping it did not come off as far too strange or eerie. ‘Wanted: Someone to spend time with. I am a man in his late 30s looking simply for someone willing to be company on weekends or perhaps excursions every now and then. I am a CEO, hoping for someone not within my immediate circle or in similar circumstances as a companion. Younger than me is preferable but not necessary, and I do not want someone unwilling to speak about subjects like music or literature.If you need something covered in your life in the way of tuition, startup money, or funds for a project I am fully willing to cover it. Please call if you are interested and I will ask further questions of you to see if you are what I am looking for.’ There was contact information underneath. He had used a spare cellphone that he could dispose of if he got anything too egregious or terrible. It was sitting next to him now on a side table and he glanced at it. Twice he had already needed to turn down people who seemed a little too forward or, air headed, to say the least. A part of him was wondering if this had all been a terrible idea.

[gebrochener-adler]

❁

Austrian Flowers

AZALEA - Take Care of Yourself for MeBELLS OF IRELAND - Good LuckCAMELLIA  Admiration; Perfection; Good LuckHEATHER   White - ProtectionZINNIA  White - Goodness

[gebrochener-adler]

Amortentia

It is nigh on impossible for his expression to not soften a bit and he does not even particularly mind. “Things that come to mind, well- Crisp, perhaps refreshing even. There is still something, a little familiar about it. Well kept suits, some cologne, but under a layer it is almost, earthy.” Well his ears turned a bit red so he just straightens his glasses. “Things like tea or early morning coffee, books and new stacks of paper, freshly done linens, a well tended fireplace, beer I never thought I would much care for-” He cuts himself and, just nods a bit because he could absolutely hear that warmth in his voice and he flustered himself.

[osterreiich]

@letztermannsteht  𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅  :   slow dance

﹡ . ° slow dance // accepting .

𝑽𝑰𝑬𝑵𝑵𝑨 , 191𝒙 ,  𝑩𝑬𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑾𝑨𝑹

❛        i   am   glad   preussen   has   taught   you   something ,   after   all  .      ❜   THEY   BOTH   KNOW   WHAT   HE   MEANS ----   he   does   not   mean   the   quick   reloading ,   which   he   had   watched ,   silent ,   paces   away   as   the   other   struggled ,   too   young   by   human   standards   to   have   his   hands   occupied   with   weapons .  he   does   not   mean   the   fencing ;   which   he   had   taught   him   first ,   but   then   later   honed   by   the   one  that   was   meant   to   be   his   ally .   HE   MEANS   THIS ---   the   sweep   over   the   dance   floor ,   feet   quick ,   hand   warm   at   the   middle   of   his   back .   roderich   also   knows   that   he  had   been   the   one   to   finance   the   dance   tutors . 

❛        it   is   unbecoming   for   an   empire   to   not   know   how   to   lead .    ❜      even   when   he   is   still   so   young ,   barely   a   child   to   roderich ,   who   has   seen   empires   shatter   already ---  he   grows   tall .   THIS   IS   WHY   HE   IS   LEAD ;   he   has   been   in   wolfgang ’ s   position   more   than   enough .   he   knows   how   to   control   whilst   being   passive .   ❛        i  am   glad   you ’ re   doing   well .   now ,   do   quicken   your   step ---  this   is   the   viennese ,   not   the   english .      ❜  

[damnprussia]

“ i was never what you wanted. ”

Poetry sentence starters

"Sadly, I lost the receipt a long time ago, so I can’t just return you,” Gilbert said dryly. He was almost done cooking his curry, and he didn’t need Wolfgang’s extistential crisis ruining his dinner. “Do you want some currywurst? I’m also preparing some vegetables and rice.”

He checked his rice while he talked - busying himself made it easier to say things like this. “For the record, I have never said that you were never what I wanted, or needed. Whos aid that? Bavaria? Probably fuckin’ Bavaria. The birth of a nation isn’t something that we can want or not want - it just happens. As far as you go, as a person -- I fought tooth and nail for you, and I’m very proud of you. If it makes you feel better, I’m pretty sure that I’m not what anyone has ever wanted.”

[cieloderoma-archive-blog]

@letztermannsteht from x

     Lovino gave a shrug, running his fingers through his hair and giving his dark locks a shake. “That’s all we can do, isn’t it? The past is the past, after all. No matter how shit it may have been, we don’t have the power to change it.” He flicked the ash of his cigarette off onto the ground, grinding it with the sole of his shoe into the wet pavement. Glancing Wolfgang’s way, he smirked a bit. 

     “Does it always rain this much where you live, or is it just your mood?” He teased, taking a drag again. “Didn’t expect to find you out here on my smoke break.”

[derhaifischderhattraenen]

❝ You don’t have to worry about me. I’m tougher than I look. ❞

“Tougher than you look….” Michael looked Wolfgang up and down in obviously exaggerated, doubting fashion. “Well, I guess if you throw a bolder at a bolder one of them has to give in eventually.”

Michi shrugged and finished taking his climbing equipment on. “All I am saying is this wall has some nasty parts and you know,... just avoid the worst case scenarios is all.” He gave Wolfgang a pat on the shoulder. “Not that I’m saying I don’t trust you. I just want you to be prepared.”