First of all, sorry for the absurdly late reply. Diego’s been here for the past month and shit has gotten hectic af. Anyway, Sorry bout it.
I really tried replying through my phone but I just dunno... So since I finally got a moment with my computer I’m trying to write this down as fast as possible, in case you are waiting idk.
Okay so... uhm... I guess I was never really mad about what happened... I was... truly hurt tbh it just that you went places I would have never thought you possible. You said terribly things and were really cold and idk... I am fully aware that its not all on you and that it shouldnt have been the way it went. For the past months, our unnie and I would talk about it and that she thought I should have talked to you and fix things but I didnt feel it was up to me, sorry. ‘Cause for starters I really felt that I wanted to talk to you more than you did and its not like I completely stopped worrying about you and thinking about you y’know? it wasnt... at all... I would think of you in the weirdest moments... but kinda deep inside I knew it was for the best. Even though I miss you a lot and treasure a lot what our friendship was, by the end of it there was nothing really good about it. it was just... completely worn out and I really think that it was because we were both too stubborn to let go and instead of wanting the other to understand and do as we want it we should have been a little bit more selfless and instead of thinking about what we wanted and needed we should have thought about what the other wanted instead. that made absolutely no sense.
About exo... I am sorry for being so childish about it. Exo is a mess that you shouldnt get involved with if you dont want to and with everything thats going on with them I understand that you dont want nothing with them... even more now with the whole tao situation.
Oh and maybe I ruined things for you but I personally cant even think about nuest... I mean it started dying on me the past years but now its just... I dunno...ialkshja;lsdk and i dont really like that tho.
Im guessing that the ppl you met were Lia or Fernanda?? Im guessing it was them cause even Ive heard about Kai lol. Sorry if that made you uncomfortable????? I mean... its totally out of my control so... dunno.. sorry...
what else?... uhm I do believe that maybe.., dunno... in the future... we dont necessarily need to be best friends? but at least friends??? dunno.. I really dont want to make you uncomfortable or maybe im overreacting and you dont really care about it anymore and you just did cuz dunno sorry im rambling... i guess thats all i had to say.
oh anD HOLY SHIT DONT I MISS KRISREN?!! like wUT? and ofc xiutao... but yeah...
I do appreciate all those really good and not so good moments that we shared and im not regretting anything and maybe dunno if only we could have dealt with this better but yeah we didnt so well that.
