Hey, I randomly came upon your page today and read through your posts. You and I have a similar story in many ways. I'm gay, and was alone for my entire high school career, even though I was out since I was fourteen. I'm nineteen now and I wanted you to know that its all going to happen for you. That first kiss, those touches, love, sex. It will happen in time. You'll be surprised. The world is weird and seems unfair and shitty half the time but the things you want will happen. I didn't have my first kiss until a week before my 18th birthday, and my first boyfriend happened soon after. Keep your options open, you might be surprised about who actually likes you, be kind to everyone and give them a chance. And besides, you're going to find some really hot guy who loves red hair one day, I know, 'cause I'm one of those guys, and we're a lot more common then you think ;)