#life talking

[mechamatou]

When I have an idea for my fics, I write it down on my smartphone in my note-taking app.

I use the list function so when I wrote the idea in my fanfic, it appears checked on the app.

I talked about a wip with @fluoxetinehcl and @demial4 and it already gave 20 idears because I was so motivated !

BUT

I can't start writing it. Because I know that when I start working on it, I'm going to be focused and want to write without stopping.

And in two weeks, I'm taking the oral exam of a professional competition (to evolve in my work) and I have to revise a minimum.

I know I haven't worked hard enough to get it, but I'm going to be in front of a jury for 40 minutes and I'll have to hold on a little bit anyway.

So I'm not starting the new WIP and it's hard.

Especially since at the same time I'm transferred to another department, I'm visiting apartments to move (fingers crossed that I have the great one I visited on Saturday!) and mentally it's hard. And writing made me feel good, and I have to slow down T_T

But hey, this weekend a friend takes me to a concert of music from the anime Shingeki no Kyojin in Paris and even if I haven't seen the last seasons it's going to be cool!

[sequintial]

Someone in a car just shouted at me while I stood at rhe crosswalk

"Have a great day sir"

Huh???

[neofox67]

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Hello everyone !

it really has been a long time since i opened tumblr so i’m making a news about what had happened to me during this extremely long hiatus ( i’m also sorry for the people who asked me something and i never respond). I’m completly going to talk about my life, i don’t make this often on social media, sorry if you find this boring xD but i really want to talk about it today.

First of all , this year i surely had the best year at school so far. 

Before i was making studies about Maths in order to become an engineer. I quickly understood it wasn’t the path i wanted to follow but i had to finish my diploma and it was really hard for me, i feeled like i wasn’t where i belonged, but i managed to do it even though. i really hated what i was doing and then i went into Prepa Gobelins, it appeared like freaking heaven to me because i was eventually doing what i loved: Drawing!

I worked hard (sadly i wasn’t thinking about tumblr anymore Dx explaining the hiatus) and met with a lot of friends who were kind of like me, passioned people loving to debate about movies, pieces made by awesome artist, and discovering more and more things :3

Then came the exams of Art schools, as i was in Prepa i had to pass a lot of exams (actually for five schools) to be sure to continue my studies

And i had to pass Gobelins exam 0-0 (if you ask i will detail the exam in another post because it’s a bit long)

And... I FREANKING PASSED IT 

I WAS ACCEPTED TO GOBELINS 

Next year i’m going to integrate the formation in animation ( crfa23 )

i’m really happy and i thanked my teachers a lot xD then i remembered two months next that i had a tumblr account i absolutly deserted

it was important to me to say this because i created this tumblr 3-4 years ago, and i developed my goal to make animation studies at this time. I was also not very self confident and quite childish at this time and i made friend with wonderful people on this social media (even if i didn’t talk to them in a year, i’m really the worst Dx) i kinda grew with tumblr lel

I now feel like i’m writing a new page in my life, also i wanted to bring a little bit of support to the people who want to achieve a dream too x3

to finish this unusualy long post of mine (the longest i ever made without a doubt) i’m going to put an end to this hiatus and posting more regularly things (like my book i made this all year) i’m more active on instagram so you have a link above. i hope you’ll still enjoy what i’m doing even if i’m a fucking ghost xD

Thank you a lot for reading this too long post, you get a cookie

and don’t forget to trust in yourself !

oh and as i’m not very good in english you can send me correction thank you :3

[sequintial]

i want more people to play The Message From Deep Space but it's such a niche and hard sell. Project Hail Mary translation moment but 30+ hours? Math puzzles followed by basic chemistry and physics puzzles followed by language puzzles? Just., PLAY IT

[sequintial]

What is wrong with my brain that now that like FIVE people have caught me on my way/their way out of the studio to tell me I'm such a force for positive change/ inspiring for how kind I am and how I treat people/that they're just very glad I'm around/thank me for being great... I just keep worrying this is some elaborate negative social thing where I'm being a nuisance and people are trying to gently bring it to my attention... Like. Bro why the fuck would these people go "I want to treat people the way you do" if they want me to knock it off?? It's also not even an actionable fear like how could I even stop. Why would I even stop. And yet I am just so flabbergasted by being a... Positive role model for people my age and older??? That I keep trying to turn to more familiar explanations. I want to accept the compliments and feel a warm sense of being seen and appreciated, and to turn to those memories when I need to remember I am valued. I don't want to hold their efforts to share this feeling with me at arm's length and dismiss it.

[sequintial]

I love crossing the street when a bus is also crossing. The light might be red but I don't trust those car fuckers not to blast through me. But when my friend bus is in the street with me it's like a pawn being protected by a majestic queen. Ford F-150s might kill me, but they won't survive my friend City Bus.

[sequintial]

adhd-themed survival game where you have to craft new organizational methods. and if you don't keep your resources on screen they disappear and you have to go find more. and your methods have durability so you have to keep making different ones when they break.