#lifeblarghen

[rvnamarie]

i haven't made plans with *my own* friends in over ten years.

I was too depressed to keep my own, so my circle was my others people's

This summer i will get new tattoos

and eat a whole cheesecake

and see my friend in toronto,

i'm so excited just to be making plans

i haven't made plans with *my own* friends in over ten years.

But i've found my own music that i like again

and people know my voice

my real one, the nice one

and describe me by the way Audrey sounds

because it's truly unique, they say,

and they say my right name

in contrast to the first part of my life

when all i heard was a name that never felt quite right

Now my name, the very sound of it,

is attached to my friend and her voice,

who says my name out loud with joy,

my only friend last year whose voice i heard

all year that pierced my bones

and made me feel at home with family

[rvnamarie]

how would you even draw the eyes looking down *without* looking closed?? wtf 😩

Hands and fingers? wtf 😩

Colouring? wtf 😩

i tried watching tutorials and they're like "here are 300 brushes for 6000 purposes, familiarise yourself with all of them" wtf 😩

sticking to the same two brushes, thanks 👍

#MarilynMonroe #artthreads #krita

Attempt one:

[rvnamarie]

Fingers: hard

noses: hard

mouths: hard

faces: hard

i see why people start with fruit. may i just draw hair?

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Photo by Shaw. Amagansett 1957

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