Yo anyone else with BPD really fucking struggle with money cause as soon as I make bank it’s straight out of the fucking bank
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Yo anyone else with BPD really fucking struggle with money cause as soon as I make bank it’s straight out of the fucking bank
Yeah.... #lifesfucked #whybother #cantdothisanymore
Story of last night ...
Went out for a meal for my friends 21st. It was nice. Went out for 1 drink after meal ... Enemy turns up. Friend goes and leaves me with enemy. Calls for many jagers (which were free) to drown the fact im with a dick head on a night out. This causes me to have blanks for 6 hours of my life with only vague memories.
1; being sat on a loo floor consoling enemy.
2; having more shots
3;meeting old friend and having a catch up
4; more shots
5; looking outside and seeing its morning and very bright.
6; being escorted to taxi rank by nice man.
7; waking up at 9:30 am still very drunk and having to get ready for work
oh yeah and between 4 and 5 I kissed my ex boyfriends uncle ... a lot.
Fucking hell!!!
mfucking late night stressing
most of us live in the mfucking moment. Living the fast life cause we all impatient mfuckers that are hungry for that mfucking paper & those wishy washy hoes. What is your future saying tho? I can stay up all night having a game plan, but fuck that stress.. You feel.. So we continue fucking wit these temporary shit. If you ain’t starving & stacking. What is your future dealing wit?
Fighting and drowning everday,
Indecency
How in the hell can people be this fucked; I don't feel these nigga's where's the love at? I quit my job, buy a bus ticket, sell my guitar for $25, a 3 day trip from Virginia to California. I walk 14 miles from the bus station and these people don't even have the decency to let me see my 5 month old son. I love you Ayden and I'm still trying no matter what the cost.
i was his number one now we don't even talk
IT GETS BETTER
' It gets better, stay strong ' biggest lie I’ve ever heard, I’m so sick of hearing that, cause it’s not true, I don’t believe it does get better, cause I’ve been waiting years & I feel the same.. just a shitty as I did when I was 10 or younger. People need to stop telling me that. I doesn’t get better, maybe it gets easier to watch me suffer, because after years I can put up a fake smile and laugh, but on the inside I’m just as dark & morbid as before.