Fighter Baby turned Angel
Guys, just want to ease the pain....pardon for posting it here...
sorry for the all pain, my angel...
The way you came into our life was unexpected
We were overwhelmed by the fact that there is a beating heart inside her womb
Without us knowing… you were conceived in secrecy, kept as a secret into this world
It was on your 7th month when they acknowledge your presence in this life
The moment you were out was graceful, every second is timeless, every minute is precious, and every moment is a treasure
Every single day that passes, we carefully watch you grow slowly…
Every move, every breath, and every smile you gave to us felt like a rollercoaster ride
We will forever keep it into our heart your small smiles, your tiny laughter…
You are a gem to us, a living treasure we would like to take care of until we die…
How we wished all of this will be perfectly still
How we wished you’ll grow old with us, living the life you deserved
Though you came into us unexpectedly, we dreamt a lot for us, that you’ll stay in our arms
You and your brothers to be, in the future, would play along
With life’s bittersweet circumstances, how we wished it would toss life’s luck into us
Even though we were just watching you from afar, how we wished you will live a healthy and fulfilling life as you grew up…
But life sometimes, is a bitter joker…what we thought was eternal suddenly will took it from us…slowly. With so much pain until the very little life you’ve got ends…
Then came the unexpected…the dreadful day… they notice that as the days go by, you were turning jaundice… they thought maybe you lack exposure to sunrise…for better medication, they consult professional advice, series of test have taken by…blood samples were suck out of your tiny little arms… how i wish it was me my dear. It felt like a nuclear bomb was thrown upon us when we heard the dreadful news… it was biliary atresia…the following months were a dreadful ones… i remember when they tried on you the kasai procedure….the injection itself of anesthesia made your heartbeat stop…it’s a go or no. They couldn’t take the risk of losing you that early so they say no. They just got lucky the medical staff got you revived…I am sorry my dear that someone has to take your father’s responsibilities to you… I am sorry my dear for all the pain these disease have caused you…
Months passed by, waiting in agony …while raising fund for your operation…a lot of help flood for you, my dear. Maybe they can’t take to lose an angel so charming that early…
But yesterday change all of that…we felt the throbbing pain as we watch you held your very last breath and then you’re gone…an angel devoid of life….
October 11, 2019 my dear…you just turned 9 months last September 28, 2019 and life took you away so early….
For all the pain you’ve endured during the past months, I am truly sorry my dear…
How I wish it was me, who endured all those pain…
I know Apologizing won’t make any amends, still, my dear, we will see you again and we will be together, maybe not in this lifetime but in eternal life…when the right time comes…
We know that there’s an angel watching us from beyond the clouds….
- Isinilang ka at namaalam sa mundong ibabaw ngunit ni anino ng iyong ama’y hindi mo nasilayan…maaring kami ay may pagkukulang…sa lahat ng ito, aking anghel, patawad…. –
- Nawa’y gabayan ka sa kaharian ng mapagpalang diyos kung saan walang sakit at karamdaman. Sana ay maging maligaya ka sa kalangitan aking mahal…tapos na ang paghihirap ng iyong murang katawan dito sa mundong ibabaw…-
Magkikita din tayo at magkakasama, balang araw... sa tamang panahon...
Patawad sapagkat ni hindi ko man lang naiparamdam ang pagmamahal ko sa iyo...
No more pain my dear.
Rest in peace, our Angel.