#light drop

[ibelieveinpi]

Today's energy was a little lower than yesterday's, but I still accomplished quite a bit at work, and I'm keeping up with most healthy habits. I'm nervous about a meeting I have tomorrow because I feel very unprepared, but I am also not sure about what the expectation was to begin with, so I'm trying to not stress too much.

Also, I think my coworker might be hinting at introducing me to their sister, but I'm not sure how to express that yes please because what if that's not what they meant?

[tracitravels]

[ibelieveinpi]

Spending the December holidays alone for the first time in my life because my family is a mess. I've fulfilled the peak depressed young adult stereotype.

[ibelieveinpi]

So is anyone else kind of overwhelmed at the abundance of "stuck at home? Here do ___ for free" like just because I'm spending most days at home does not mean that I don't have anything to do? the amount of "extra" time I have is literally only the time it used to take to commute to the University, and seeing all these entertainment and educational stuff makes me feel like I must be doing something wrong because everyone else apparently has all this free time now and I'm still scrambling to get my stuff done

[ibelieveinpi]

That feeling when you haven't closed your computer in weeks and you can finally close all the tabs and programs and shut it down

[ibelieveinpi]

I've been working with this yt guy, and it's so wholesome because:

- he actively tries to be inclusive and respectful

- he has the attention span and memory of a goldfish and is super open about it, which makes me comfortable not trying to pass in front of him

- he's one of those smart people academically but is also kind of a himbo

I wish more yt boys in engineering were like him, the field would be so much more comfortable and welcoming

[ibelieveinpi]

A junior student asked me something along the lines of: you're so successful, I have days when I feel so dumb, did you ever feel like this? And I was like: dude I feel that way every day. I thanked then for sharing how they felt and validated their feelings. I also told them about imposter syndrome and growth mentality, and shared some of the strategies I use to deal with self deprecating thoughts, but I think what they appreciated the most was that I was open about the topic. It's about time we get rid of the stigma around mental health, especially with how toxic academia can be.

[ibelieveinpi]

All I want is a partner who is a decent human being, appreciates science, doesn't want kids, and wants to go on adventures with me