After a year and three days,here’s the final chapter of Lights Down Low.Fair warning it’s not proof read and it’s a bit confusing lol but I hope you all enjoy -if y’all still read my works anyways- Thanks for all the support.Love y’all.
Leya’s P.O.V
Walking into the house, the last thing you expected was the silence that greeted you.Usually it’s always noisy.The mess in the kitchen however was no surprise as you knew how lazy Jay could be at times.
“Babe,” You call out as you make your way up the stairs. Peeping into Kai’s room, he’s fast asleep with Oscar at the foot of his bed and Pj in his arms.Closing his door you head to yours and Jay’s bedroom at the end of the hall.
“Jaebum,” You call out but upon opening the room you’re greeted by darkness and the soft snores of your man child.Careful not to make any noise you put your bags in a corner and grab a change of clothes using your phones light and head for the bathroom. You were in need of a shower after that train ride from Busan.
What could have possibly made my boys so tired that they’re out cold and it’s not even 8pm yet?
I know for a fact that Kai would sleep straight into tomorrow but Jaebum on the other hand would be up sooner.
Drying my hair, I toss the used towels into the hamper.Jay now laid on his back as he mumbled incoherent things in his sleep.Climbing into bed,I straddle his lap and shake him lightly.
“Bum,”
“No…don’t leave. I’m sorry.” He mumbles.
“Jay.. Baby wake up,” I shake him again.He tosses a bit but doesn’t wake up,still mumbling.What the hell is he even dreaming about?
Shaking him roughly a couple times I curse when he still doesn’t wake up.God, please forgive me for I’m about to do.
“Wake your short, pointy ears having ass up,” I shout before slapping him across his cheek and he jolts forward, his head colliding with mines.
“Owww! Bum what the fuck?” I groan,rubbing at my forehead.
“Cataleya?”
“No shit Sherlock.” What was she doing here? Didn’t she get married? Why was she straddling my lap?
“What are you doing here?” Jay questions reaching across to the bedside table and turning on the light there.
“Uh, I live here? I know I was gone but damn baby it’s only been two days.”
“No you don’t and why are you on my lap?” He replies pushing you off.What the fuck?
“You’re married to that Gregory guy so why are you here?” Who the fuck is Gregory?
“What in god's name are you on about? If this your way of telling me you don’t wanna get married anymore,it’s a bit too late for that.” You say to him,getting off the bed.
“This is not real,it’s just in your head Park.Wake up.” He mumbles before proceeding to slap himself a couple times. “how long have we known each other? What year is it?” He suddenly asks.
“It’s 2019 and I’ve known you since I was 20 Jay,you know this.”
He’s off the bed before he can give you a reply.Grabbing at the nearest pair of shoes and a hoodie,he slips them on before reaching for his phone and wallet on the nightstand.
“Where are you going?”
“For a drive…I need to clear my head.” Before you can say anything he’s out the bedroom,down the steps and out the door. The only thought running through your mind is ‘What the fuck just happened?’
One week later.
“What’s up with you and Jay?” Kiseok asks.He had come to me to work on some tracks for his album and we’ve gotten closer since then.
“I’ll give you an answer when I find out.We haven’t spoken since he practically ran out the house last week and he’s been ignoring my calls.I’ve been alone finalizing a wedding that may not even happen Ki.” I had no idea what was wrong or how to even fix it but in all honesty…at this point I’m not sure Jay even wants to marry me anymore.
“Aye,none of that sulking.This is a happy place.” Kiseok says. “Now I know we weren’t always as good as we are now and I wasn’t the nicest person when we first met but I can one hundred percent assure you that Jay wants to marry you.The guy bought the damn ring five months into y’all officially dating. I know things may seem uncertain right now but in two weeks time you’re going to be Mrs.Park Jaebum and you’ll look back at this and laugh.If anything he’s just scared that you’ll leave him hanging at the altar. You two have to get married,if you don’t then love ain’t real.Now turn that frown upside down and come join me on Instagram live.” He says pulling his phone out his pocket and hopping back onto Instagram after being gone for so long and looking like a damn bowl of spicy ramyeon.
“Thanks.” Was all I managed to say before his live started.
My fingers hovered over the piano keys as I tried my best to stay awake.Kai was with his grandparents for the weekend and without him or Jay around, the house felt rather empty.
With only one week left until the big day I had no idea where Jay and I stood.He just left and I hadn’t heard from him since then.
I had no idea when I fell asleep or how I ended up on the bed but the smell of caffeine woke me up.Sitting up and stretching, I get off the bed and head down to the kitchen to turn off the coffee maker because I’m positive I took it off automatic. I pause when soft humming hits my ear,I move slowly along the wall to kitchen.
Before I could peek in, a voice I know all too well speaks up. “I already know you’re there baby,sneaking up on me won’t work. I knew the moment you got out of bed.” Stepping out from where I was,I spot Jay sitting at the counter with breakfast laid out.
“Stop staring and come sit.” He says without turning to look at me.Hesitantly I make my way and sit opposite him.
“Eat.” He still isn’t looking at me and I don’t like it.
“Where have you been?”
“Leya,eat.”
“Look at me and tell me where the hell you’ve been for the past two weeks Jaebum.” I try not to raise my voice but that doesn’t work out.How the hell does he expect me to eat when he just shows up after leaving us for two weeks without even a text or call.He doesn’t answer but he does look at me. “Was that your way of telling me that you don’t want to get married anymore?” I fiddle with the ring on my finger when he still doesn’t give me an answer.
“I know the way in which I left must have given you doubts but let me assure you that I am never going to change my mind about marrying you.You’re my special someone,both you and Kai and someday soon I’m going to put a baby girl in you but that...that dream felt so fucking real and it messed with my head a bit. I’m sorry for how I left,more importantly I’m sorry if I gave you any doubts.”
“Where were you and what dream?”
Pulling me out my seat and onto his lap,he wraps both his arms around my waist and starts telling me about his dream and where he’d been.I’ll admit he could have just spoken to me about it but I also understand that he needed space but above all that I’m just glad that he’s finally home.
“I know we have our moments but no relationship is perfect.It was just a dream,I’m here and it’s where I’m going to stay because there’s no other man that’s ever gonna make me want to fight and love him at the same time.You’re it for me Jaebum and I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you.”
“I can’t wait either and that’s why I need you to wake up.”
“Huh?”
“Come on Leya wake up.” I hear Sunghwa’s voice as Jay starts to fade.
“You gotta get her up before Jay starts losing his shit at the alter.” Another voice sounds but I can’t make out anything as I struggle to open my eyes. What the fuck was going on?
“I think she’s coming to..that’s it Leya.Open your eyes please before your man kills us.”
It takes a moment for my eyes to adjust to the brightness of the room I’m in once they’re open but once they’re cleared I see Chase,Hyukwoo and Kiseok high five each other as Sunghwa lets out a sigh of relief.
“Why are y’all looking at me like that?”
“Ohh! I don’t know! Maybe it’s the fact that you didn’t eat or stay hydrated when I told you too.” It’s Hyunjung who’s popping out from behind Chase.That’s when everything starts making sense.Them being all formally dressed. I was getting married today.Holy shit! I’m getting married.
“Somebody’s finally back,” Chase chuckles. “We gotta get back out there,Hoody ensure that she’s good and we’ll continue in ten minutes.”
As soon as they’re out the door she’s rushing over and hugging me.
“Woman! I swear to God you better not scare me like that again. I almost told them about you know what.”
“I’m sorry,” I sigh. “I had the weirdest dream though.”
“As much as I’d love to hear about it,we have four minutes to get you out there before Jay comes barging in here like a caveman.” She helps me stand and adjusts my dress. “I can’t wait to see him cry,” she snickers and I laugh lightly knowing exactly why she said it.
“How much did you bet with them?”
“In total...two hundred million wons and Hyukwoo has to where whatever I pick out for him the week before he leaves for army duty.” She smirks devilishly and I can’t help but smile.
They were a crazy bunch but I love them.Each and every one of them have become such an important part of my life that I have no idea what I’d do without them.Before I can get any deeper in my feelings there’s a knock at the door before Dean sticks his head in.
“You ready Sofrito?” You’d think he’d get tired of calling me that after all these years but he hasn’t stopped. I smile and nod at him as he fully opens the door and sticks his hand out.
“Never thought I’d see the day someone tied Jay’s ass down nor someone tame your crazy ass.” He chuckles lightly,linking his arm with mine as he walked me towards the entrance.
“Tame?? I’m still crazy and he knows I don’t play.” I smile at him.Dean was as much a brother to me as Ronnie was and that’s why I had them both walking me down the isle.Once we're outside the door Ronnie sticks his head in, most likely signaling to whoever that we were ready.The classic bridal tune begins and the doors open as Ronnie links his arms on my right.Both him and Dean walk me down the isle before handing me over to Jay who looked like he was about to cry.Halfway through my vows,the first tear slips and I couldn't help but chuckle because Hoody had just won. Chase and Sunghwa mouth the word 'finally' to each other once our vows are said and the priest announces that 'you may now kiss the bride.'
Jay pulls me in and kisses me softly before resting his forehead against mine,"thank you." he mumbles.
"what are you thanking me for?"
"for giving me everything I've ever wanted…a family to call my own,your love and affection even if I get on your last nerves just…just everything. And with that he's kissing me like it's the last time he'll feel my lips.
After everyone gives there speeches at the reception and our first dance,Chase announces that we have put together a little performance for our guests.Everyone knew this day wouldn't be complete if Jay didn't invoke some kind of competition.We hadn't picked a honeymoon destination just yet and so whoever won this got to choose as well as to see who could give who the better wedding present and knowing my husband he's fully confident that he has this in the bag. Oh if he only knew.
I'm made to sit on a chair in the middle of the ballroom,facing the stage.I smile as I see Kai get up on stage with his guitar."Hi,mama." he smiles brightly and the crowd coos at him in his all white suit just like his dad.Seconds later Jay appears with two stools.Kai hops up onto one and Jay helps him with his guitar before he sits on the other and adjusts his microphone.
"Just want to thank everyone for coming out and celebrating this new chapter in our lives with us," he speaks "but y'all know this day wouldn't be complete without a little friendly competition." he smirks and the audience groans playfully.
"This first thing is my wedding gift to you.i know I've said this a million and one times for the day already but thank you and please don't leave me cause my mom would legit ring my ears if you did."
"Damn right," Mrs.Choi speaks up from her seat and everyone laughs.
The light dims after that and suddenly little crystal like lamps are lit around them both on stage and a light fog rolls in.Kai starts playing his guitar and the screen behind them starts playing videos from when we'd first met.
As Jay sings,Kai occasionally joins in with adlibs and I can't help the tears that start streaming down my face. Thank god for water proof makeup.
Is this what they'd been sneaking around with for the past few weeks?
Everyone bursts into cheers as they come to an end and I can't help but find myself on stage wrapping both of them in my arms.Jay ushers me back to my seat after and few moments and he proceeds to perform some of his songs that he knows are my favorite,even bringing Chase and the others in for one that they'd recently done together.Once he's finished,it's my turn to give my gift and knowing how big of a Beyonce fanboy he is,I know he'll enjoy what I have planned.
Ensuring that my mic-pack is securing the music starts and I make my entrance.
The small peacoat that covered just until mid-thigh was enough to hide the surprise until the end.Jay sat with his mouth open or smiling and cheering throughout the entire performance and as our gathered in around him, the spotlight shines on me standing sideways,I unwrap the coat and smooth my hands over the very visible bump that I've been hiding for the past two months.Everyone is quietly as it takes a moment for Jay to process before he's out his seat and wrapping me in his arms,laying kisses all over my face.
"You're pregnant? I'm gonna be a dad again?"
"yes,yes and you got your wish," I smile at him. He doesn't get another word in the guys are clapping him on the back and congratulating him.
As the night draws to an end Jay and I find ourselves seated at an empty table with the family.His parents left over an hour ago and Ronnie had to go pack for his early flight out as well as Dean.My feet in Jay's lap and one of his hands draped over the back of my chair as we reminisced. "Remember when we first met and Leya dragged you by your ear out her studio?" Sungwha laughed along with Hyukwoo who adds, "what about when I asked if she had any Korean in her and he almost blew a gasket." We all started laughing at that. We had come a long way from a message on Instagram.
"Thank you." I mouth to him and he smiles before leaning in and placing a kiss on my forehead and then my lips before leaning back and sighing happily.
My life had changed so much since I've met each and everyone of them and I can't wait for this new chapter in our lives that we're about to begin.
Happy birthday to this hardworking inspiration.We know you don’t know what a break is but I hope you had an incredimazable day and that you enjoyed it to the fullest.
14. Wine Slow.
“Family Vacation?”
“Yeah,he’s off school for two weeks and it’s Hawaii. You can bring Ronnie and his fam along too.Its been awhile since I’ve seen him.”
“Are you forgetting that you start tour soon? You don’t have time. I don’t have time.We have to get these tracks finished and your girl gon throw a tantrum if she knows what you’re up too.”
“She’s gonna be in California for Coachella along with some other things and I know that your boyfriend is gonna be away for games so really it’s a win win situation.” He states. “Please Leya,I know we have a lot of work to do and I promise not to play around if you agree."
It's not that bad of an idea,the shows were days apart and then the other week Kai was heading to Cali with Ronnie and Jas while we worked.What's the worst that can happen?
"Fine,because we both know you won't leave me alone until I agree to this.I'm working choreography with Hyolyn today so you're working out the technicalities of this family vacation as you call it as well as picking Kai up from school and taking him to your parents before bringing your ass back here to record the vocals." Jay salutes at me before I pick up my bag and leave his office,heading down to the dancehall to meet up with Hyolyn.
---
What's the worst that can go wrong?
"You planned this didn't you?" I point to Jay accusingly.
"How is it my fault that they don't have enough rooms? I'm not telepathic, I can't read minds." Somewhere in the corner Ronnie snickers and I turn my glare towards him.
"What's so funny Ron?"
"Oh c'mon Leya.You're behaving like you both have never shared a room before."He says slinging an arm over my shoulder,pulling me close to him."Let's not give the people a hard time,with all of the crew he has working,it's understandable that they're overbooked." He says innocently before leaning into me and whispering in my ear. "Everything's fine that is…until you jump him."
"Ronnie!" Jas smacks him in the chest before I could."Leave ya sister alone boy,I'm sure she can control those hormones." She teases and I remove myself from Ronnie's arms,sticking both middle fingers up at them.
"I swear you both are annoying as fuck."
"but you love us," they say simultaneously.The show was in five hours and I am so not in the mood to deal with these two.Given the fact that Gregory behaved like a bitch about the entire situation and we weren't on speaking terms,Jay's girl apparently gave him an earful as well before she left,so all in all we were both a bit on the grumpy side.
"We gotta go get ready for the show,take care of my baby." I say to them both,leaving Kai with a kiss on his forehead before heading over to Jay who was waiting on me.
"If you really don't wanna room with me,I'll just crash with one of the guys or something.I think Shawn and Austin got space."
"Look,about that…I'm sorry.I didn't mean for it to come out that way.I don't have a problem rooming with you.I'm just grumpy because I fought with Gregory before we left and I'm hungry."
"So we good?" He smiles at me.
"Yeah we good,just as long you get me food." I smile back at him.
---
"Sooo how are we doing this?" Jay and I both ask each other as we stared at the bed.It's almost 2am and we're trying to figure out who's sleeping where.
"you've got shows and interviews,so you need your sleep and the couch isn't gonna give you that so I'll crash there seeing as Youjin gets in tomorrow and I don't gotta dance anymore."
“Leya you know you don’t have to sleep on the couch,”
“I’ve slept on a couch before Jay.It’s fine.” I cut him off.
“Would you stop cutting me off? Wait when did you sleep on a couch and we can share the bed.It’s big enough and I promise I won’t touch you.Trust me.”
“After we broke up and I went back to L.A and trust me it’s not you that I don’t trust,” I mumble the last part to myself.If he heard me then he acted like he didn’t because he’s shifting pillows and making a wall down the middle of the bed.
“See problem solved,now get in and get some sleep.We got a long day ahead.” Jay says before he gets in on his side.Arms crossed behind his head, he looks at me expectedly. “Leya get in the damn bed before I put you in it.”
“Fine,fine.”
—
Day 3
Today has been quite eventful.Jay rented a yacht and we spent most of the day at sea.Kai had a blast and to be honest that’s all that really matters.Gregory still wasn’t speaking to me and neither was Jay’s girl speaking to him but we decided not to let that dampen the mood.
Kai and Mimi knocked out right after dinner with Jas and Ron opting to stay in while Jay and I got some work done.
“Bum,c’mon.” I whine.We are currently sitting in the now empty rehearsal space trying to get another track down and he won’t stop goofing off.
“We been at this for hours Leya,we both know that we aren’t getting anymore done tonight.Pack up and come dance with me.” He says.He had a point,given the amount of time I’ve been working with Jay I knew we weren’t getting anything done if he wasn’t feeling it and right now all he wanted to do was dance.
“No thank you,” I reply while packing my equipment away.
“You’re behaving like we haven’t danced together before.”
Again he has a point but I know Jay and I know myself.Dancing is our thing.
“The last time I danced with you we ended up with Kai.”
“That was years ago though,aren’t we friends Leya?”
“Yeah,but…”
“No buts.It’s just two friends having fun.” He says before he’s pulling me by my hands to stand in front of the mirrors.Once the beat starts and I recognize the song I immediately try to back out but he isn’t having any off that.Jay’s arms wrap around my waist holding me in place.His eyes lock on mine in the mirror and he leans in close to my ear. “I hope you remember the moves.”
Sweaty,pushed up against the mirror with Jay behind me.Fingers interlocked with mine,head tucked into my neck as the song started again.
“Leya,” he mumbles and I can feel his breath tickle my skin.
“Hmmm,” I hum back to afraid to use my words.
“Tell me to stop,”
“We..we should probably…stooooppp,” the last part comes out as a moan as Jay presses his lips to my neck.His lips trail up my neck and across my jaw before he’s spinning me.Both hands above my head trapped in one of Jay’s while the other travels down to my waist and over the curve of my ass as he cups a feel of the flesh.
“We really should stop,” he whispers,lips hovering over mine.
“Yeah,we should..” I mumble before capturing his lips with mine.Call me naïve,call me stupid but I was through denying myself of Jay.No matter how much we tried to convince ourselves that we’re just friends,just co-parents to Kai,we know that there’s underlying tension.
Breaking your hands free from Jay’s hold, you kiss along his jawline and to his neck.Fingers running along his clothed chest as you slowly sink to your knees before him.His body shook in anticipation as you palmed him through his sweats,pushing his shirt up and licking a broad stripe up his stomach.
For some reason Mia didn’t like giving head so he never really pushed for it.She didn’t like a lot of shit so he settled for what he got and seeing you so eager and ready has him twitching in your grasp. You pull his length free from its confines,looking at him as it rests against your cheek.
You lick up and down the underside of his shaft before wrapping your lips around his tip and sucking hard.
“Fuckkk,baby,” Jay groans gripping a handful of your hair and tugging your head backwards.He leans down and presses a kiss to your lips before he directing your head back to his leaking tip. “Open up and stick your tongue out.”
You do as asked and Jay grips his cock and guides it into the awaiting wet,warmth that is your mouth.Hands behind your back,you keep your mouth open as he uses your mouth for his pleasure,just the way you know he likes it.Somewhere in the back of both y’all minds you both know that y’all shouldn’t be doing this but neither gave a single fuck. You can tell his orgasm is near as you feel him pulse when he buries his cock down your throat and you swallow around him.Jay’s quick to pull out and lower himself onto the floor,pulling you on to his lap.
Jay was thankful you wore a skirt because lord knows he didn’t have the patience to deal with pants today. You waste no time sliding your panty to the side and aligning his dick with your entrance before you’re sliding down on him until he bottoms out.
Hands gripping onto the flesh of your ass cheeks,you start a slow bounce,picking up the pace every time you rise until just the tip is in then sinking back down onto him.From this angle Jay had a perfect view of the way his dick slid in and out of your wet cunt as well as the way your face contorted in pleasure in the mirrors on the opposite side of the room.
Jay knows that your close,so is he but he needs you to get it first but with the way your walls are gripping and clenching around him,he feels like he’ll bust at any moment.Forehead resting against his,he slips a hand between both your bodies and goes straight for your clit.Your body arches into his as you come undone with a scream of his name.He helps you ride out your high before he’s getting to his feet and holding you up against the mirrors.
Legs wrapped tightly around his waist he fucks into you rapidly and sloppily until your nails are digging into the fabric of his shirt and his neck is hidden in your neck as he buries himself deep in you,coating your walls with long ropes of his his warm seed.
He pulls out once he catches his breath and puts your feet on the ground.No words are spoken as he fixes your panty back in place and you tuck him back into his boxers and pull his pants back up.
“Can we order room service when we get back?”
Jay nods before kissing me.Both his hands grabbing onto my ass.A slight moan escapes my mouth before he’s tugging on my bottom lip,licking it in the process. He pulls away before I could deepen the kiss.
“Let’s go.” He says grabbing our bags and leading me out of the building.
—
I woke up the following morning to Jay’s head under the covers and between my legs. I know I should regret this but I can’t find in me to stop.My body’s so in tuned with Jay’s that it’s like we’re connecting for the first time all over again and if I’m being completely honest… I haven’t felt this good in years nor in the months that I’ve been with Gregory.
"Go shower,we have places to be.” I say to him once he comes up from under the covers.I honestly thought he’d change his mind but judging by the smirk on his face, I know exactly what idea came to mind as he lifted me and threw me over shoulder softly smacking my ass as he walked to the bathroom.
"Jay put me down."
"Nahh,we got places to be.Save water,shower together." He turns on the shower before putting me down on the counter and stepping in between my legs. He kisses my cheek down to my neck,my legs tightened around his waist pulling him closer when he bit down and sucked on a sweet spot.
My hands made work of his clothes the same way his did mine throwing them haphazardly on the bathroom floor.Lifting me up, he carries us both into the shower.Back up against the wall as we kissed under the water while rolling his hips against mine.My hand reaches up and let his hair out the tie as he teased me by putting just the tip in.
"Jaebum I swear now is not the time for teasi-" my back arched against the wall as I get cut off.Jay pushing his entire length into my awaiting heat in one quick stroke.Nails scratching at his back,my lips worked his neck leaving a trail of purple marks as I went.
—
Jay
I knew she wasn't a virgin but the way her walls wrapped around my dick gripping me tightly has me just about ready to bust.Had me wondering if homeboy even knew what he was doing with her body.
Her moans filled the bathroom along with the slapping sound of our skin as I deep stroked her pulling out till only the tip was left in then driving right back in.Her legs began to shake in my arms,I let her down turning her around to face the now fogged up shower door. I got in between her legs from behind bending her over both her hands on the glass door as I held onto her waist with one hand while the other fisted in her hair,pulling as I rocked in and out of her roughly.
"Fuck,daddy!! shitttt right there..." she moaned out the rest of her sentences coming out in Spanish.
Her walls clenched around my dick tightly as she screamed out."shit stop before you make me squirt.” As those words left her lips I couldn't help the smirk that graced my lips as I sped up knowing exactly what was about to happen. I could feel my balls tighten as I continued hitting it hard. I hit one particular spot and her entire body became undone as her legs shook uncontrollably as she squirted all over my dick,her pussy squeezing the fuck out of my dick,triggering my own release. I held onto her waist tightly releasing into her as we both rode out the high we were on.
We washed up well more like I washed us up because Leya kept dozing off in the shower."Come on ma keep them eyes open." I coaxed her as I slipped one of my shirts over her head onto her body before changing into some three quarter sweatpants.By the time I returned from the bathroom Leya was out like a light cuddling a pillow.Sliding in next to her and removing the pillow replacing it with my body.I grabbed my phone and scrolled through my social accounts before checking my dm’s on Instagram and stumbling upon something that I’d suspected for a while but had no proof.
We still had a couple of hours left before we had to head down for breakfast and so placing my phone on the bedside table, I cuddle into her body and close my eyes.
—
“Mia,” I call out as I enter my apartment.Her bags where by the door so I know she’s here and hopefully she won’t hate my ass for what I’m about to do.
“Mia..”
“I’m in here.” I follow her voice to my bedroom and what I see has everything I planned on from the drive from the airport stuck in my throat.This has got to be some sick form of karma.
“Surprise!” She says all excited as she gets off the bed and makes her way over to me.
“Is this for real? You not playing with me right?”
“It is.I’m not.We’re gonna have a baby.” She smiles and presses a kiss to my lips.
Fuckkkk! How the hell was I supposed to handle this? I’m this close to getting Leya back and now this. I couldn’t leave Mia now,not like this. I already messed up when Leya was pregnant and I refuse to let another child of mine grow without me.
—
“Greg??” I call out once I step into the apartment.Most of the lights are off with the exception of the light in the hallway and that’s when I notice the flower petals lining the floor. I swear this motherfucker better not have some bitch in my apartment.Kai was with Ronnie until next week and right now I couldn’t be more happy,just in case I had to drag two hoes.
Upon entering my bedroom I’m frozen in my tracks at the image before me.Greg on his knees in the middle off a circle made out of candles and the words ‘marry me’ spelt out with flower petals.
Overwhelmed and shocked I bolt towards my bathroom door and lock it behind me once I enter.Pulling my phone out my bag, I quickly dial Jay’s number only to get his voicemail. I keep trying until it finally picks up.
“Jay-” I start but stop at the words that I hear next.
“So you’re definitely pregnant? I’m gonna be a dad?” I hear him ask and she says yes.
She’s pregnant? Does he know she’s been sleeping with Greg? Is he even going to believe me if I tell him? He’s already ignoring me so I guess he’s made his choice.Hanging up the phone, I open the door and slowly step out into the bedroom.Jay’s made his choice and now I have to make mine.
Greg looks up from his place on the edge of my bed with a smile on his face.
“I’m sorry.. I”
—
“Kai,you coming to dance with us today?” Chase asks as they eat lunch.
“I can’t,it’s ma’s rehearsal dinner tonight.”
“What for?”
“She’s marrying Greg.” He replies with a roll of his eyes and Chase almost chokes on the water in his mouth as his eyes drift to Jay.
It’s been about six months since Jay has seen you. He wanted to talk to you but he had a feeling that you already knew what was up and that’s why you took your piled up vacation days. He however, was not expecting this. You were getting married to the man that is the father of Mia’s baby.Did you know they’d been sleeping with each other? Would you even believe him if he told you now? Why would you? You’d probably think he was just trying to ruin your relationship? Why didn’t he just break up with Mia that day and come back to you? Why didn’t he just answer his phone when you’d call? Maybe then he wouldn’t be sitting here feeling like shit and you both would be happy.
It was too late for all that now.He had to live with the fact that you’re getting married to the man that’s the father of his ‘girlfriend’s’ baby and that he was stuck with said girlfriend.
Both hearts knew where they wanted to be but the truth is Jay couldn’t find it in him to strip you of that happiness so in the end you both end up without each other.
Three weeks.Three long fucking antagonizing weeks and she still won’t talk to me.How the hell am I supposed to fix this if she won’t at least hear me out?
I tried contacting her after the Grammy’s but her brother said that she wasn’t in the states anymore. I feel like I’m missing a part of me as cliché as the shit sounds. I would rather she hear me out and just be my friend instead of not talking to me and being able to have her in my life.
“Has anyone seen Cha Cha?” I ask as I exit his office.
“He went down to the dance studio about an hour ago." Harry replies to me before carrying on down the hall.Taking the elevator down to the studio I enter quietly as I could see a session going on or about to start.Majority of the people there were in heels but that’s not what caught my attention.There she was on the other side of the room talking to Cha Cha and from the annoyed expression on her face I can tell that he’s telling her something she didn’t want to hear.
Sitting in the far corner I pulled the hat on my head down further and wait for her session to end. I have no idea what it is but she was looking thicker than a bowl of oatmeal and she was glowing.She wasn’t wearing any makeup and god so help me,now was not the time to be getting turned on.
As the last of the people including Cha Cha shuffled out the door, I follow suit but lock the door behind the last person.
“Chase I already told you that I’m going to keep staying at Dean’s until he goes home.I don’t nee-” her words get stuck in her throat as she turned around and realized she wasn’t talking to Chase.
“Jay,”
“So that’s where you’ve been all this time huh?” I honestly should have known that he would cover for her.They were like siblings so it was dumb on my part. “We need to talk.”
“There’s nothing to talk about.” She replies turning her back to me.
“Yes there is! I gave you your time. I left you alone and now your ass is going to listen to what I have to say.”
She didn’t say anything so I took her silence as an okay for me to continue. “I never cheated on you.Jacqueline was around before I started seeing Bora.She’s been claiming that the baby’s mine since I dropped her and every time I try to get her to do a paternity test she refuses. I know I was always strapped with her but given the type of person she is I won’t put it past her to have done some fucked up shit.”
"Why are you so adamant on a paternity test if you know the baby isn't yours? It's because deep down you know there's a slight possibility that the baby is yours Jay." She says.She isn't lying.I did think that there was a possibility that Jacqueline's baby could be mine but even still she has to believe me when I say I ain't ever cheated on her.
"You know I'm right and to be honest I don't know if I can handle all that stress right now."
"Stop beating around the bush and just tell me what you gotta tell me Leya.I'm a grown ass man not some little boy or your ex." I cross my arms looking at her.I don't know when she managed to sling her bag over her shoulders but I know her ass isn't leaving here until we sort this out.
She scoffs."your recent behavior says differently Jaebum but you're right so what I'm saying is that I need space and time to come to terms with all this and you constantly calling and staying at my apartment isn't helping right now.We need time apart because all this stress isn't healthy."
"All this stress isn't healthy? You wouldn't be stressing if you just trusted me when I said that I did not cheat! I'm here trying to make this work and you just want to leave.What happened to through thick and thin no matter what?"
"All this stressing isn't healthy because I'm fucking pregnant so forgive me for worrying about the child I'm carrying!" she screams at me,tears threatening to fall from her eyes.Pregnant? How the fuck was she pregnant? I mean know how a woman gets pregnant but she was on the pill and we hadn't been intimate in awhile so how in the hell did she end up pregnant?"
"So that's why you're trying to take the easy way out huh? Funny how you're mad at me for assumingly fathering a baby by someone else but here you are pregnant when I haven't touched you in the longest." I laugh sarcastically.
"Are you seriously accusing me of cheating on you? Are you dumb or just plain stupid?"
"You honestly don't expect me to believe that's min-" my head turned to the side as her palm connected with my cheek, hard.I could feel the sting ringing my ears and I know it’s going to leave a mark.
"Fuck you Jay.On god,I swear I'm done with your ass.Lose my number and stay the fuck away from me." she spat, tears running down her face as she pushed past me and exited the studio.Did I just lose my girlfriend?
One Week Later
"Hello?" I answer whoever is calling me at three in the morning.
"Leya, you up?"
"hmm…"
"Leya!"
"Whaaaaaaat?!" I'm tired as fuck and whoever the fuck this is, is interrupting my sleep.It's so damn hard finding a comfortable position to sleep in lately and as much as I hate to admit it I know it's because I'd gotten used to sleeping next to Jay.
"Look,I'm sorry for waking you up but I need a favor." the person on the other end asked.
"Who is this?" I ask still half asleep.
"Did you not check your caller ID? It's me,Chase."
"What do you want Malone and why are you calling me at this ungodly hour? I know you don't know what sleep is but us non vampires need sleep to function."
"Can you come pick us up? Your man has had one too many drinks and I'd rather not call an uber. Please do me this one favor?" he pleads.Now fully awake I sigh heavily before sitting up in bed.Too tired to even correct him on calling Jay my man.
"Send me your location." I hang up on him before he can reply and get out off the comfort of my bed.Slipping on a pair of leggings under the overly large sweatshirt I'm wearing,I slip my feet into the closest pair of sneakers I could locate and grabbed my phone.Opening his message I almost contemplate just going back to bed.
Out of all the places they couldn't be close by? I'm still not used to driving in Seoul just yet and they expect me to drive all the way to fucking Itaewon? I mean it's only half hour but still what the fuck? Grabbing my keys I exit the apartment and make my way down to the parking garage.Chase so owes me for this.
I text Chase once I get to their location and It isn't long before him,Sunghwa and Hyukwoo come stumbling out the club trying to keep Jay on his feet.I open the door for them and Chase smiles at me apologetically.Gettong Jay into the car was a hassle but they managed and we were on our way.
Halfway through the drive Jay start mumbling breaking the silence in the car.It isn't until he mentions pregnant and Jacqueline do I open my mouth and tell him to speak up. I had never seen him this drunk ever and he looked a hot mess.He hadn't shaved and he had heavy dark circles under his eyes.He was way past faded and everyone in the car knew it.
"She's pregnant.Like….I still don't get it." he scratched his head.
"Jay man stop talking nonsense." Sunghwa mumbles from his place in the backseat but that did not stop Jay from the rant he was about to go on.
"I hadn't been hitting it so someone had to have been," he hiccups."D-does she think I'm going to accept that kid as mine? That thing will w-w-will never be mine and to think I wanted to marry her." he laughs drunkenly and reaching into his hoodie pocket and pulling out a little velvet box.
The tension in the car grew and one look at Chase through the rear view mirror told me that he'd put everything together. "Bro,shut up."
"No! Leave him.Let him get it off his chest." I say to Chase.
"What am I gonna do with this now if she out here giving my love away to someone else?" he says popping open the box.Sitting comfortably was a ring worth more than my entire apartment but I'll admit it's a beautiful piece and looks one of a kind as well.
"So you think she's cheating on you?" I ask trying to keep my emotions in check.This pregnancy had my hormones all over the damn place.He nodded.
"If she was willing to forget everything and move forward would you want that? Baby and all?"
"Cataleya.." Chase chastised. I know he knows what I'm doing and he probably thinks it's unfair as Jay isn't in his right frame of mind but a drunken heart speaks a sober mind and if this was the only way for me to get answers out of Jay then so be it.
"I want nothing more than to forget all this shit," he says softly,head leaning against the window."But as long as that baby is in the picture I’ll always feel some type of way because it's not mine.I was supposed to give her a baby first." He sniffled and looking at him out the corner of my eye I could see the silent tears running down his face.I have no problem forgiving Jay and moving on but he stands by the idea that I cheated on him and got pregnant.If he doesn't want to accept his child and see that I'd never do him like that then fine.
Nothing more is said as I pull into his garage.Pulling the promise ring off my finger,I lightly grab Jay's hand as Hyukwoo opened the door and placed it in his palm."I'm sorry it has to end like this..just don't forget that I love you." I whisper more to myself than to him.He stumbles out the car and makes his way to his front door with the aid of Sunghwa and Hyukwoo.Chase bends down to look at me."So you're really doing it?"
"You heard him Chase.I'm not going to pretend like this shit doesn't hurt because it does but if he can't accept the fact that I'm carrying his child then he honestly can't expect me to stick around.I can't just think about myself anymore." I reply looking straight ahead instead of at him.
"He's drunk off his ass, can't even tell his ass from his elbow right now and you're gonna use that as judgement on your relationship?"
"His mind is made up because the things he confirmed tonight is everything he said to me last week with a competely sober mind.I'll see you around Chase." With that he steps back and I pull out and start my journey home.I think it's time that I took a break from Korea.
My last exam is Mid June and then I’ve got some family things to handle so the last chapter of LDL won’t be up until about mid July most likely I’m trying to get everything sorted but you know how life just loves fucking witchu
"But why not?" He whined like a little child. I was so tempted to hang up this FaceTime call on him.He knew exactly why we couldn't tell Loco. I love the guy.He has become like a brother but he couldn't keep a secret at all.He would open his mouth a ruin my damn plan.
Rolling my eyes at Gray I ate another grape."You know that man cannot keep a secret Sunghwa. He'll go running his mouth."
It was his turn to roll his eyes at me.He knew I was right so he immediately changed the topic."When do you get here?"
"The week before Christmas. I have some final documents to sign and then I'll be free.Are you picking me up?" I asked him.
"If I'm not busy that day I will but if not I'll send someone." He replied before telling me he had to go because his next session was about to start.We exchanged goodbyes and I settled back into my couch.
It was only 7pm here which meant it was 10am tomorrow in Seoul and his day had already began while mine was just ending.It also meant that Jay would be calling or texting soon.If someone had told me back in August that I'd be as close to Gray as I was now I would have laughed.Here I am five months later with amazing new friends and a boyfriend. I didn't think I'd be able to get close to a man after Yashel but here I am like a giddy little school girl waiting for her crush to call.
I didn't think we'd be able to make a long distance relationship work but two months in and we're doing fine. I still have no idea how he managed to get six dozen roses into my house last month but he was making it really hard not to fall head over heels for him.
My phone dinged off and my attention immediately diverted to the screen. I laughed at his name. I didn't mean to put it as that but it kinda stuck since I couldn't think of anything else.
Kimchi 😍: stuck in a meeting..won't be able to call you at lunch 😩. I miss you 😘.
Quesadilla👸🏽: it's okay baby..text me when you get home and I miss you too ☹️ I've got nobody to cuddle with and get booty rubs 😩.
I replied then quickly snapped a picture and sent it.
Quesadilla👸🏽:
Kimchi😍: fuck!!! You're not playing fair baby girl.What am I supposed to do about this boner now? You don't need anyone but me anyways 😏
Quesadilla👸🏽: 😉😘
Quesadilla👸🏽: you've got two hands babe put them to work.
Kimchi😍: 😒😒
Quesadilla👸🏽: 😂😂😘
Kimchi😍: nahhh we gon' fight when I see you. Out here laughing at my pain.You been hanging with Gray and Loco too much.
Quesadilla👸🏽: 😂 don't be a punk baby..you know you not gon' do shit but come este coño,cuddle and give me booty rubs 💁🏽💁🏽😝
Quesadilla👸🏽: it's getting late though and I have a lot of work in the morning so pay attention in your meetings and I'll text you later.Have a good day baby 😘
Kimchi😍: 👀👀👀
Kimchi😍: I know what your freaky ass said and trust me you gon' get it 😏😏
Kimchi😍: I am paying attention 🙄 but have a good night and sleep well beautiful 😘
I smiled at his messages as I plugged my phone into the charger. I don't know how this plan is going to go but I really hope this sacrifice is worth it for the both of us.
Jay
I could feel eyes on me as I looked at the text on my phone.
"If he smiles any wider he'll rip his face." I heard Gray mumble causing the guys to laugh at me. I honestly didn't care though I was happy and them clowning on me wasn't going to change that.Looking up from my phone with my smile still in tact I looked at my coworkers,my family.
So far Gray and Loco were the only ones who knew I had a girlfriend.It's not that I didn't want to tell the others I just wanted them to meet her first before I told them the reason I'd been smiling so much lately.
It didn't feel like we were on different sides of the world. I don't know if we're in that 'honeymoon' phase that everyone talks about but right now I like what we have.
Cha Cha,Wegun and Simon all looked at me while Gray and Loco looked bored.Cha Cha and I were going over the plans for the new project we're working on whereas I had many other meetings to attend today with the others.
"You know Bora's ass is out here telling people you cheated on her right?" Simon said as he sat across from me.
"Let her man I'm way too busy and happy to go dealing with her bullshit. I cut her off since way back in August and it's like she been stalking my ass ever since.She showed up at the Air bnb we rented in Cali when we went to shoot the video. I still have no clue how she knew where I was."
Before Simon could reply I excused myself to the bathroom. I really needed to pee with the amount of water I'd been consuming to calm myself down.When I exited I saw Simon with my phone in his hand and a smile on his face.
"Who's Lady Jae with a crown and heart eyes?" He enquired as I took my seat. I had changed her name from Quesadilla earlier.Lady Jae had quite the ring to it but how the fuck did he get into my phone.
"It rung while you were in the bathroom so I answered but the person hung up as soon as I did." He replied sliding my phone back to me and holding his hands up in surrender.It was a bit after 9pm here so I knew her day was just starting and it had become our routine.If we texted throughout the day we at least got one phone call in either when my day was getting started and hers was ending or vice versa.We usually FaceTime so I know Simon saw a little more than he's letting on.
"I'm going to out on a whim here and say she's the reason you just stare into space and smile like the joker?" Simon teased. I swear Loco has no cover for his mouth."And no Loco didn't tell me a thing.For the first time he kept his trap shut."
"How much did you see?"
"Enough to know that you took your own advice and finally got down with the swirl."He laughed.It was no secret that Simon loved women especially those with color.Simon had dated a couple Korean girls in the past but once he got a taste of a different flavor he savored it.There weren't many colored women in Korea so when he got one he held on for awhile.Don't take this as me saying Simon was a fuckboy,I don't think at our age we could be considered that but he liked experiencing new things and right now it just happens to be women since his breakup he says he hasn't found anyone who makes him feel anything more than lust.
His phone dinged in his pocket and he pulled it out.Tapping on the screen rapidly a shit eating grin formed on his face.One I knew all too well.Dismissing him with my hands as he looked at me I laughed at how quickly he bolted out his seat and through the door.
Sighing I rocked back in my seat and scrolled through my recents tapping on Leya's name.It rung a couple times before her half dressed body appeared on the screen.
"As much as I love the view right now I'd love to see my girlfriend's face." She shuffled around before she set it down.She sat doing her hair from what I could see.She looked at me in between making small talk and I didn't mind one bit.She slipped her shirt on and her glasses before she plopped down on her bed propping her face up with her hands and looking at me.
"I miss you.." she said with a pout."..why is New Years so far away."
"It's only three weeks away ma.It'll fly by in no time.Again I apologize about Simon." I replied yawning slightly.
"Baby you're tired and it's fine.He didn't see anything he's not supposed too."
"Did you cut off your hair?" I asked noticing the difference and trying to avoid the statement. I was tired but I wanted to talk to her.
She rolled her eyes at me." No I didn't.It's a wig and don't go trying to change the subject Jaebum."
"I'm a little tired but I want to talk to you so let me be a good boyfriend."
I got up and grabbed my keys and my bag heading out my office and locking up.Security locks up after I leave so I took the elevator down to the lobby. The guard let me out locking up behind me as I made my way to my car.
"Babe I gotta go.Jas is here.Text me when you get home.Drive safely." She blew me a kiss and winked. I did the same being all extra with mine just to see her smile before we hung up. I took a screenshot of her smiling just before we both said bye.
Thankfully there wasn't much traffic so it didn't take long for me to get home.Entering my house after parking I was greeted by my dogs.Making a mental note to walk them in the morning I put out some more food and water for them before heading up to my bedroom,texting Leya on the way. I didn't even shower or change out of my clothes because as soon as my body hit the bed I knocked out.Three weeks and I'd have my girl here with me.
Leya
"Who's Aquaman with a crown,heart eyes and the tongue out emoji?" Jas inquired while making the face.😝
I had no idea why she was always on my phone but her excuse was "yours takes better pictures".We had the same damn brand of phone but Jas needed a new phone screen every other week so Ron told her no upgrades.
"Who you been fucking with and does your brother know about this?" She asked raising her eyebrows at me.
"Yes mother Ronald knows about this and I haven't been fucking anyone.To answer your question he's my boyfriend and I got bored with his name being saved as Kimchi." I shrugged paying attention to my niece who was demanding my attention.
"Nobody ever tells me anything.What the fuck?" I laughed out loud because her daughter looked at her with her mouth open just as she cursed and as adorable as it was it was too damn funny.
"Wait is he the reason why you're doing that thing?" I nodded.
"Are you sure this is what you want?"
"I'm sure.It hasn't been long Jas but he makes me feel so alive. I know I sound like I've got it so bad but I really feel like he's worth the sacrifice." I finished.
"You've got that look." She smiled as she reached for her daughter who was reaching out for her.What look was she talking about?
"What look?"
"The same look I get when I look at your brother." She smiled.There is no way I was in love with Jay. I couldn't be.Wasn't it too soon for that? It's only been two months. I couldn't be in love.Could I?
