#like an old string

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Tell me why I couldn’t sleep last night and the moment I felt comfortable u know what happened?

The angel from TADC

Y’know, the angel from my goshdarn nightmares?? (ep. 3, I think)

That creep showed up in my head

Im not going to show what it looks like to you people who haven’t seen it/don’t remember bc it is horrifying :,,(

[i-w1ll-d1e-your-d4ughter]

I hate hate hate hate that im not a cis unlabelled but certainly not straight boy in the British 2000s w uncaring parents

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I feel like crying for no reason :(

[i-w1ll-d1e-your-d4ughter]

Okay yo listen up I have a Misha Bachynskyi headcannon

What if Misha is trans— mtf?

Mild mentions of internalised homophobia, sexual lust, me ranting. Do not progress if uncomfortable with any of the above.

This sounds a little crazy, and I personally don’t support this headcannon, but it makes me think of a comparison to him and Jax. If he’s really the angriest boy in town, then he must act pretty badly, and we know that the constant repetition of the emotions in Ukrainian men— and the desperate love between him and Talia.

Maybe he’s deeply closeted, so closeted that Talia’s a cis girl (thought I headcannon her as a pansexual polyamorous demigirl) or whatever who’s one of those people in youth groups that support trans teens. Maybe he was going to transition when he went back to Ukraine— or even before going to Ukraine, to be a girl there— and Talia was a girl he met online who was supporting him.

That may be why he was dubbed the angriest boy in town, too— because in Ukrainian culture, and in his repressed emotions, Misha knew that he was meant to have rage and passion, and due to his awfully dire situation, he could only feel rage and wouldn’t allow himself any other emotions. Y’know, the average internal transphobia.

Also that’s why I think he constantly refers to himself as a guy, as in when he was talking about “two men” kissing each other being normal— he still thinks of himself as a man on the outside even if he doesn’t feel this way inside. Again, with the Macklemore quote— he implies he doesn’t feel that being gay is bad. In my understanding, being gay means a male x a male— he refuses to consider himself anything but a man.

Also I definitely think Misha’s actions in Noel’s Lament and his admiration of Noel in that outfit wasn’t love or lust, rather envy and the relishing feeling of imaging female body parts. . . If that makes sense?

Anyways, tbis is heavy inspired off the behaviour of Jax in TADC and that she is transgender, too. The reason I used he pronouns for Misha is, albeit I have come up with this theory, I still believe of the ftm Misha Bachynskyi headcannon.

[i-w1ll-d1e-your-d4ughter]

Holy shit being in love is hard when you’re constantly pining

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Today’s sketch under the cut!! Took me ages 😵‍💫

So much context for this but I’m exhausted so nvm

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My mum keeps thinking my favourite thing is to pretend to be autistic :(

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“Fit check!!” I yell, trying to look like a fourteen year old private school douche boy