etoiles: yeah he's still attacking, and still losing 😆
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etoiles: yeah he's still attacking, and still losing 😆
playing yttd for the first time completely blind was a trip, mainly due to the fact that i voted for mishima in the practice round and proceeded to believe i had caused his death
my brother: so I've been watching gravity falls and I'm on the one with the dating game
me: how far are you into it?
my brother: uhh soos has tried asking some people out but they got scared?
me: OH so you haven't gotten to the part where it turns into five nights at freddy's
my brother: ...
my brother: ...
my brother: WHAT THE
i had to do my french speaking portion of the exam and i nearly broke down crying and i had to keep from panicking and i did really bad
Hey, just so you know there's a few of us at school who are a bit concerned about you. You seem to be pushing all your close friends away. People drift apart, I get that, but ignoring everyone who cares about you is not healthy at all. I know that you probably feel like you're worthless, and feel like no one cares about you, but I wouldn't be sending this message if that was true. I'm not asking you to reconcile the friendships if you don't want to, but PLEASE take care of yourself.
Okay, i appreciate what you’re saying, and I,m not getting pissy at you, but I’m OK. Am I happy? well, no, but that has nothing to do with my lack of school chums. I’d ask who you are, but I’m not sure I’m going to get a reply so…The reason I have been ignoring certain people, is because I was feeling ignored or excluded by them, and I dont appreciate that feeling, I didn’t feel like they care about me at all, so i protected my own feelings and moved away. I spent the first 15-16 years of my life trying to be friends with people who didn’t act friendly towards me, or ignored me when I tried to be friendly with them. I finally decided that I’m going to treat people the way that i feel they treat me. Yes this is petty but I’m past the point of caring to be honest. I will admit that I did ignore someone, but this was not done in a hurtful or malicious way. I’m not mentioning names, you know who I’m talking about. Anyway, that day literally had been ruined before 8 am, and I didn’t want to speak to anyone, or I would have cried or snapped or done something, I did talk to other people later on, I admit that, but by that point id gotten to grips (sorta) with everything. Since then only a couple people out of the little clique I was a part of have talked to me. I’m ignoring the others because I feel like some of the people who know my innermost secrets hate my guts, and that is killing me and the only way that I can deal with it is ignoring them. Getting rid of these friendships has not changed the way I view myself at all. I’ve been feeling worthless for a long long time, and until recently i thought i did a pretty good job of concealing it. But I know people care about me. I have my family, and a small but great group of friends, Not all of them are at school, a couple are in different countries, but I know they all care about me a lot. I’m not saying that you, or anyone who you’re talking about dont care for me, because I dont know your emotions towards me, but these people are the ones who have shown it, the people who stayed awake to talk to me to make sure i was okay after having a panic attack, the people who have stayed my friend even though we wont talk for a while, and then pick up a convo. These people understand that yes, sometimes i wont want to talk, and they wont pressure me to say whats wrong, and then get annoyed when i dont respond, because they understand that’s how my brain works. I’m taking care of myself the best way i can, and although some of my methods aren’t healthy, I’m doing what i can to get through this rough patch. I do get that people are concerned, like I’d be concerned if it was someone else, but I’m doing ok.
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