just gonna do a long post ill most likely delete, and im sorry it's not very eloquent, but i had to make it.
when you have a fat person grow up being told they need to lose weight, being bullied for it, having diet culture shoved down their throat at every turn and seeing thin conventionally attractive couples on every channel and in every movie, you eradicate their belief in their ability to be loved as they are, which is fucking disgusting. everyone has the capacity to be loved.
im not just talking about romantically, though that is what sparked this post. ive had three crushes in my lifetime and each time ive felt, and currently feel, like im not worthy of reciprocation, because i don't believe someone could love me. i could literally be told that they feel the same and i would not believe them. i feel like i have worth but not the one necessary to be loved. because when i imagine holding hands with someone romantically, i laugh, "why would someone want to hold hands with someone who looks like me?"
it's also platonically. you feel embarrassing when out with friends, like people are looking at you and looking at your friends, and wondering why you're there. when your friends show you compassion and love, it shocks you. when they organise things, you wonder why they'd want you there, you wonder how you have people around you who love you despite this thing you've been told makes you worthless, unlovable, easy to mock and worth only that.
from someone who struggles with this: you are worthy of all the love in the world. your body is fine just as it is, you deserve to be loved and to love no matter how you look. you are not embarrassing, you can fall in love and be loved, you are appreciated and valued and those who love you, don't do it in spite of your weight, they simply love you.
