#littlesprinkles

[its-a-splendorful-world]

It really is the hardest part that Zoey asks when Daniel will wake up. He is sleeping now, but he won't wake up again.

I wish I could make is easier for her, as young as she is, I just don't think she'll understand until she's older.

I want so badly to tell her I'm sorry, I try not to cry in front of the children, but sometimes when they're asleep I can't help but fall into tears.

It hurts like nothing else does, loving them as much as I do, knowing not all of them will grow old enough to leave me.

I feel like such a fool, being coddled by my own proxies, as if I'm just a child. I don't know what I would do without them, I don't know if I am that strong anymore.

[its-a-splendorful-world]

I know that love and joy are the things that strengthen me, it is what my magic draws its power from, the warmth of these emotions is what casts sunlight over the trees in my home.

And yet, the most painful moments of my life have stemmed from them.

The heartache I carry everywhere.

Sometimes I wish I was more like Slender, he suffers nothing over the tragedy he's caused. He is overwhelmingly logical and thoughtful, and I'm just a mess.

I feel like such a fraud, this face I wear is just a mask that hides a monster, my teeth are sharp and hands are clawed because I am a carnivore.

These children mean everything to me, caring for them is what gives me purpose, but I think it's a selfish desire of mine, to have them love me. Maybe if they love me they would understand why I have to eat them, I can't survive without them.

I pretend so much, playing with the lives of these poor children, forgotten and unwanted as they are, of course they love me as their caretaker many of them have never had anyone else. And here I am, a liar, most will never know, if I told them I couldn't selfishly love them as I do.

I just wish it didn't hurt so much.

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hii!! this is kinda targetted towards all of your brothers too but what would you do if you met another (or multiple) different version(s) of yourself? just curious! ^^

Hello!!! Not sure if grumpy old Slender will reply but I know Trendy & 'fendy won't mind! @trenderman-trending @totallyrealtenticlemonster <3!

If I met a different version of myself I'd probably give him a big hug! And ask about her kids! And give him a friendship bracelet to take home! Oh, and I hope she wants to stay for dinner so all the kids can meet her too! ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

[its-a-splendorful-world]

Daniel gave this to me, when we had the party a few days ago.

He always was my artist.

He's asleep now.

I wanted to share this though. So everyone can be proud of his work too.

They say if you remember someone they never go away, I think more people should remember him.

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My little ones! Not counting my two proxies of course.

Daniel, my oldest! He's 9 and he's a little artist!

Kendra is 7 and likes to make mud pies in the garden!

Rachel is also 7 and she loves apples!

Mikey is 6 and he's so darling! He brings me flowers to ask what their names are!

Emilie is 5 and she loves to braid thing, doll hair, grass, her own hair, she wants to own a salon!

Chace is 4 he's a huge fan of race cars, especially red ones!

My youngest is Zoey, she's 3 and a half, she's very brave and can usually be found around Daniel!

My proxies, Xavier and Hanna are such a wonder to have around with so many little ones running around!

If you all would like to ask about my kids or proxies you're welcome to do so!

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You know, I consider a happy life more important than a long one. I'm no longer tasty, but if I lived again and came into your care, I would have no complaints. <3

... thank you. It's something that weighs on me heavily.

I do love them. I don't say so lightly. I wish I could keep them forever, but even my proxies who I raised as well, can not live that long.

My heart breaks knowing that when I bring a lost and aching soul home they may never leave.

I would never hurt them. I promise it's a painless and gentle death. They sleep peacefully.

There is no afterlife or rebirth for them, because their soul is what I need from them.

They are all so precious to me every loss is an ache that never fades.

I don't enjoy eating them, not like Slender and Offender enjoy eating. It's just necessary, I have to think of the wider picture. The death of one soul is the life of six others. It is my continued ability to care for more children.

I miss them, every single one of them. I remember their faces and their favorite colors and holding them against my chest when they slept fitfully... They will be a part of me forever.

[its-a-splendorful-world]

I saw you say you don't usually like to have more than seven kids at a time, and also that Zoey enjoys to hang around Daniel! Say, if at some point in future Daniel were to be... permanently absent, let's call it! How well do you think you could handle Zoey's emotions on the matter?~

- demon girl Arpa!

... I think she will be sad.

Daniel is going to sleep, all the children know about it. Sometimes it's time for bed.

I like to have a party before, not for them, or I don't tell them that. I make sure they know how loved they are.

Zoey will miss Daniel like all the children will miss Daniel and I will miss Daniel. Just as when any of my children leave my care.

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It is still utterly disappointing.

-E

You have no right to be 'disappointed'- you're an eavesdropper, a bystander-

I have saved and raised thousands of children-

I have poured blood, sweat, and tears into loving them and giving them the life they couldn't have had I not taken them.

The children that leave my care are activists, and innovators, and creators, teachers and caretakers and people who love their world and other humans-

I have done so much to love and care for these children, I would never cause them harm or pain-

I love them as if they were my own flesh and blood!

I am not a monster! Don't you dare, accuse me of being a 'disappointment'!

Get out! Get out get out! You snake! You shrike!

I love them! I am not a monster!