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How long does it take?

How long does it take to fall in love?

Years of pining? Or Months of friendship?

Weeks of flirting? Or days of deep talking?

Hours of holding? Or just one touch?

One look, one kiss, one moment?

How long does it take to fall in love?

- LTC

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You are not the man I fell in love with. I don’t know how it could be, that we, once so in sync, once so in tune with each other, once so very much in love, could be this far apart. Again.

You are not the man I fell in love with. And I hate it. I hate how you took everything I cared for about you, and turned a blind eye. I hate how you have given me nightmare after nightmare and don’t give a damn. I hate how we used to talk everyday and now I barely hear from you and you still think it’s okay. I hate how I panic whenever someone says goodbye, because when you said it - when you promised it would only be for a little while - it turned out to be months. I hate how you left me alone, scared and feeling unloved just to come back and act like everything was perfectly okay. I hate how when I brought up what you’d done, when I showed you how much you’d hurt me, you made out like you’d work so hard to make everything better. But you never did. I hate how if I brought it up now you’d say I was dragging up the past but the thing is it never got to be the past for me.

You are not the man I fell in love with. You are a liar and a cheat. You care when it’s easy and walk away when it’s not. You’ve left me so many times I can’t believe people when they say that I deserve better because if I did wouldn’t you still be here? You are the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with but now you are the person I feel the most dread for whenever I see your name.

You are not the man I fell in love with not because you hurt me but because you didn’t help me heal like you promised.

You are not the man I fell in love with. And I don’t think we can fix that anymore.

- LTC

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Of Repetition

We are on repeat, it seems. The world is not only stuck in it’s (frankly annoying) juxtaposing state of ever advanced and horridly disadvantaged but also rewind and replay - Repeat, if you will. You have those who believe we’ve come so far, and we have truly; but when there are still children dying of preventable diseases, families torn apart in preventable wars and people dying from preventable hunger, how can you say we’re living the future.  I see a world today, that’s no better than it was a little under one hundred years ago. I see a world rife with “them vs us” mentalities and “rich over poor” countries, things I thought were in the past - oh to be young and ignorant, naive perhaps. It seems we are no better than our past, today’s events mirror those that sent us to war a mere lifetime ago. Only now we lack camaraderie, we lack friendships and the solid foundations of good people. We can only hope I guess, that all isn’t lost, that we will remember and learn from our past or at least that the good in the hearts of humans will return. That we can somehow stop this hatred, this helplessness, this Repeat.

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Little To Care

When we are young it takes Little to Care, our attentions are fast and growing and curious and absolutely everything is new and of course, of course we care. But then we learn, we learn it takes Time to Trust, it takes Tears to Live and it takes Everything, Everything to Love. It takes Energy you don’t have to Heal and it takes Exhaustion to have Hope but one day - Oh my dear, the day will return to you when it takes Little To Care.

L.T.C