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Detroit become human

So I just finished Detroit for the first time

I will likely play this again and take a more agressive route

All I really have to say is Markus is a bad ass

Kara is a sweetheart who just wanted to be a Mum

Conner is my son and I will stab you if you so much as think about hurting him. Also I really love the relationship that he can build with hank, it feels very father/son and I’m here for it

That is all

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Holy fucking shit riverdale

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Dear Alex Day: An Open Letter.

Dear Alex.  I am not one of your victims, I am not one of the girls you sexually abused. No, but what I am is someone who had their heart broken by you.  When the truth about the type of person you are came to light I was in my final year of high school. I’d been a fan of yours for years, I’d loved you with all my heart. You could even say I looked up to you, that you were one of my heros. You stood among the ranks of Gerard Way, of Alex Garakat and of Carrie herself as one of the people I loved and hoped I could be like in the future. I had all of your music on my phone, I had a giant poster on my wall. I even had a ridiculous orange t-shirt with a giant A on it, like the way from your Forever Yours music video. When school came around I choose photos of you and Carrie to put in my locker, one my books.  When you and Carrie got together I thought you were the perfect couple, the cutest couple and I thought “That’s the kind of relationship I want.

Then it happened, the stories, the outcries. You had not only cheated on Carrie, I woman I thought you loved but you had sexually abused other women. I had never even for a second thought that Alex Day and Sexual Abuser could be things used in the same sentence, let alone know that Alex Day IS a Sexual Abuser. I remember just getting up from my computer, sitting in the hallway of my house and sobbing. Sobbing for hours and hours. Alone. When the crying finally stopped I got up, took down that poster, cut up that shirt and removed your music from your phone. At school I scribbled out your face in all the photos of you and Carrie, removed the one’s of just you.  But for me, it didn’t end there. It wasn’t as easy as removing any trace of you from my life and being done with it like that. It wasn’t as easy as that because you had been a giant part of my life for so long. I cried a lot, I cried myself to sleep a lot. I even remember breaking down at school when a close friend of mine asked me if I was okay. I also remember telling her that I felt stupid for crying over you.  She told me it wasn’t stupid, because you had been a part of my life, you had felt like a friend for so long and what you had done had betrayed me, had shattered my heart into pieces.  I hear now, after all these years that you are claiming that you were ‘Ghosted’ and that by that happening to you it is emotionally cruel.  Ghosting is when someone stops talking to someone else for no reason. Your friends stopped talking to you because you did something, you did something horrible. This is not ghosting.  The Community dropped you because you did something horrible. This is not ghosting.  What people did is react to an action you performed. Actions have consequence’s, Alex and just because you don’t like the consequence to something that you did does not mean that you get to claim abuse and cruelty in hopes of getting someone to sympathise with you.  If you want to talk about Emotional Cruelty then I would think we would need to talk about what happened to Carrie after you did what you did, we would need to talk about what happened to the girls you abused after you did what you did and maybe we would need to talk about what happened to people like me after you did what you did. 

There is only one positive that has come out of this, Alex and that is that I continued to follow Carrie. I got to see her achieve her dream on the west end, that in turn helped me decide to follow my dream as well. I got to see her fall in love again with Pete, Pete who is loving and caring and nothing like you. Pete who is sweet and supportive. I can now say with certainty that I don’t want a relationship like you and Carrie had. I want a relationship like Pete and Carrie have. 

So, Alex Day. This was my letter to you and I know you most likely will never see this. Or much less care but I wanted to put this out into the universe. I wanted to scream into the void just so I won’t have to keep these thoughts running around in my mind anymore.  If there is one last thing I want to make extremely clear to you Alex, it is this: You were never Ghosted. You were never treated with Emotional Cruelty. What you got was a consequence. A consequence that came with your actions and no matter what you think of said consequence that is all it is and ever will be.  

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So this happened

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I love finding out that people I have been kind of friends with for the last six months are super homophobic and have been making fun of me behind my back. Love it so much

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Division 2

If any of you guys are playing division 2 it would be highly appreciated if you could join the clan my friends and I made. It’s called red royal court and we only need one more player to become an active clan! We play on PlayStation by the way!

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Well

As of today I have been here for 6 years. Why am I still here? No one knows!

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happy birthday to meeee