SUICIDE: ONE OF DEATH’S SHADOWS
Pieces of the story of an African American female physician who survived her own suicide. Opeyemi Parham is her name and she shared a slice of her life on another page we share. Telling our story is an act of courage.
So what is SUICIDE? Is it an act of courage or cowardice? A desperate and final attempt to receive love and attention? An act of revenge? A call from beyond? Who’s to say…
This story is heart moving, soul stirring because it reveals, stirs up and shakes up the shadows of the medical paradigm as well as the shadows of being human. Even those who are designed to be human Gods take their lives for humanly reasons. You see, everything has a shadow as long as it exists even doctors and physicians. But we live in a world that denies shadow. But the shadow world can not hide even if it tries.
How many of us have thought of suicide? It’s quite enticing especially when you are walking through a swamp of a life and you are suffering the PTSD backlash of a foundation built on lies and emotional illusions. It could be tempting to want to move to a place where you can be maternally cuddled, kissed and hugged because your soul has lived its entire life as though this was the missing link and it starved from its absence.
I have thought of suicide. When I think of it, it always seem like the most perfect place to go because it’s a place of no return to the horrible living nightmare that plagues you while you are awake. When I think of dying….I think of the ultimate release, the supreme orgasm. I have not been feared death since I was a little girl and when those around me made it seem like the end of the world. I rose above that lie.
It was the end of the world as they saw it, as those who died lived it but is it really an end or naturally a new beginning.
I read an article the other day of a woman sharing the story of her female doctor friend taking her life. This attempt was successful and the question of whether it is “right” or “wrong” was on the table. Is death logical? It never has been and never will be. So why do humans try to intellectualize it?
Could we simply be misunderstanding death and the final passage of life? Is it really wrong or an unforgivable “sin” to end your own life? Did we not begin our own life? Did we not will ourselves into existence? Is it not that strong desire to manifest and return through the recycling of life that brings us all here?
So is it not that same WILL to leave that takes us away? That WILL that transforms us into something new, starting us all over or continuing us in another form that leads to death’s door?
Is it not the same WILL to die that makes us slowly kill ourselves anyway by the things we do each day that slowly sucks the life out of us? Are we not already the walking dead? What is the difference? Tell me! Bloody hell….tell me….is it any different?
You… slowly deteriorating while pretending to be living? Your heart loosing the strength of its pulse each day? You…trapped in a body and in a world that kills you by the minute? What the fuck is the difference? Somebody tell me?
The difference is its not YOU diminishing life its SOMEONE else , SOMETHING else doing the same dance of death on you, stomping on your grave while you watch them pray on your life, depend on your life, get rich on your life?
Perhaps SUICIDE is the most powerful act of ceasing control of your own life, taking your own destiny by the horn, spreading the wings you never used…..successful or not…. it is an awakening, a breakthrough of life or a breakthrough of death!
Perhaps the establishment will loose money or face when YOU take your own life. Perhaps the establishment looses its power when you wield yours over your life. Perhaps you are damaging the controlling power of the established order when you decide that you are the GOD of your own life. The establishment was designed to rule you in death and in life. Isn’t this a control laboratory that we live in and we are the mice that are tested on each day? A RAT RACE?!?!
When you die! You die! What is this gray area about HOW and WHY? Ask the question….tell your answer.
There is no life without death, no death without life!! The are a continuum of each other…I BELIEVE!
Read the story here….. Dr. O’s Adventures in Wonderland
http://www.madinamerica.com/2016/03/doctor-o-adventures-in-wonderland/