as lan ran off, he realized how stupid he was being. he invited enzan over, then just left him in the other room as he retreated into his own. he paced around the room, trying to calm down but to no avail. why was he so focused on all of this? why couldn’t he stop thinking about enzan’s blushing face and how his lips were right there and if he had just leaned in again--why was he thinking that? what was wrong with him? did he actually want to kiss enzan? the more he thought about it, the more he realized that was exactly it. and then everything hit him at once.
he liked enzan. he had for...who knows how long. but now he realized his feelings and he felt like his face was on fire. he liked enzan. he liked enzan. he liked enzan. what was he supposed to do about this? he felt like he was going to explode.
he laid on his bed, burying his head in his pillow for a moment. this was too much. but he couldn’t just stay in here. he didn’t want enzan to leave. he had to go back out there... but first he had to make sure everything was okay. after all, he did kiss enzan (just a cheek kiss but still!). he pulled out his pet to compose a message to enzan.
TO: ENZAN SUBJECT: SORRY!!!!!
sorry for kissing you!!! and running off like that!!!!!! we can just forget that if you want! i know it was probably weird and stupid to you for me to kiss you like that so we can put that behind us! just don’t leave. i don’t want you to leave. i’m in my room i just. need a minute. please don’t go
did he sound weird? did he sound awkward or desperate? he was fretting over the details, but still sent megaman to deliver the email. he just hoped enzan would listen to him. until he got a response, he would have to sit with his thoughts again.
@loadchaud (cont. from here)