yeah i could just rant on twt but i don't feel like doing it there + i don't want people to see this and i don't like it there. ik this doesn't make any sense but idc so, i want it to be like this. i am so pissed. i feel pressured. I'm complaining ik but can i get selfish for a moment??? oh yes i will. i fucking hate everyone. when frances said, 'age has got nothing to do with adulthood' because so true im like 18 and i feel like i am being a loser 24/7 i hate this. i want to be ok. idk what's going on. something very small seems like a huge mfing problem to me and that sucks. yes i got hurt because this person i had platonically feelings for let me down. they mentioned about their friends and i thought they'd mention me too but they didn't lol and everyone was like : 'i was almost sure that they'd take ur name but they didn't ah sad to hear.' i don't want pity plsss and i am starting to think if everything they've said about me being their true real amazing friend is even true or not. i am so hurt i feel wronged that is so naive of me ikkkkk but fuck it im hurt it is just sad. i was happy lol but not anymore why did i have to attend that party?? i was better off without socializing and my fkin best friend is back at being a dickhead. they're literally being this jealous kid who can't seem to appreciate my friendship with the same person. i don't know lol. i have my exams coming up i should not think about it and im not gonna think about it anymore fuck it i hate it
