#lolnevermind

[vikki-s]

　

[the-bi-bi-girl]

lol remember when i got that anon asking if i'm friends with alec

where the fuck have you been the past year or so of my life omfg

[frankiemealy-blog]

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[ladyalessadear]

[ladyalessadear]

[carter-robinson-blog]

[hailee-noel]

Emotionally Intense Day was Emotionally Intense.

Wake up late - hate myself for about five minutes

Go to first period - feel intellectually enlightened and love everything

Go to jazz band, where my teacher makes me hate myself for a nasty grade in Lit - consider suicide multiple time and realize this may mean I don't get to go to Solo and Ensemble, and I won't have my lead tenor spot, and everything will suck that much more

Eat Lunch and go to Theory - things are okay again, and I remember, hey, if nothing else, my friends and I will have fun at prom

Go to Wind Ensemble - feel like I've totally let my director down, and that I should just go die in a hole because music is the only thing I'm good at, and even there I let people down

Director takes me into the hallway and tells me that I actually have a B in Lit, so sorry for the public humiliation and I can have my lead spot back like everything is hunky dory - split between huge amounts of relief and slight bitterness at my director for making me hate myself for no reason

Go home and check E-mail and realize I should have my longboard by the end of the weekend - things are just getting better

Check the mail and see that I've been accepted to everywhere I've applied to - soaring

So hopefully things will continue to improve as the day goes on. :) Because I'm worn out from all of that worrying and trying to not hate myself.

[daughtersofrapture]

LOL The fuck am I saying ?

Ignore the previous posts hun <3