I should probably explain why I left the ring...
I felt uninspired, and the Ring felt a bit stifling creativity wise with my own experiences. Also, my perfectionist ass being obsessed with art and distorting on the White Nights and Dark Days as an Urban Myth Distortion is another reason why. I wanted to learn how to not obsess over the final product, and focus on the journey itself.
I joined the Index, because after my distortion, I felt directionless. And with the spontaneity of the Prescripts, I felt it would bring me more inspiration and ideas to work with. Especially now that I'm a Messenger, I'm able to travel around the City, and that opens up a lot of creative venues rather then holing myself up in my studio...
Also because I felt emasculated by the new student Rufo at the time.
She's so attractive god damn it.
How the fuck was I going to compete with that? Let ALONE possibly be Docent's together. I'd lose motivation so quickly- because she's built like the best of Maestros related to Neoclassicism, sculpted perfectly as if the will of the city itself descended and made her- HOW WAS I GOING TO COMPETE WITH THAT???
Also, I began to incorporate Impressionist work into my paintings and art. It works extremely well with Fauvism, and gives it a real ethereal and magical look, which is what I strive for. I strive for fantasy, wonder, and imagination, bringing and breathing creative and hopeful life into my pieces through twisting the macabre into something more...colorful, almost innocent.
I've always considered myself a sort of hybrid of the Impressionists and Fauvists in terms of work and art. Art is about mixing different ideas together, to create something uniquely human and "You".
Which is why my perfectionist self hindered me a lot when I was in the Ring. Along with the nature of the Corridor itself, being very N Corp like...