Come back to the path of good. This will only hurt you. The Afterman will manipulate you and use you. Don't do this to yourself.
Hello, One-Who-Hides. If Fell wished to manipulate me, he would have an exceedingly direct route of doing so-- he is the Lord of Mind, after all. And as I still seem to have reasonable control of my faculties, I must conclude he is if manipulating me at all (though, I must point out he did encourage me not to choose a side, saying they'd flock to me when the time was right) he is doing it in an exceedingly subtle manner, and in my mind is to be commended for this.
Fell gives me straight answers to my questions and if they are lies, they are damn good ones. I don't think anyone would lie about wanting to kill every Player in a Session of Gods for power alone, though. That sort of seems a really, really dumb thing to lie about-- and it's that goal I like, because it's one I can understand.
There are four main sides I could join, as I see it now.
MS', the nice Destroyer Prince's, who fucked around with my memories without my consent-- and no matter how nice she's been, how smotheringly near-maternal she's been, no matter how much good she's done or what her reasons were (she's sure they were good ones, and of course they were, she took a special Path and is special to boot, plus she just wanted to save us all from getting hurt OH WAIT), or how much her chats have taught me about myself and helped me to remember-- I'll never be able to forgive her for doing that, even when I learn to master my powers and steal her version of that memory. Not out of any particular want for it, mind you. She's answered all the questions I asked her in it (I think, it's according to her anyway), and some a bit more, though I mistrust her all the same, and would willingly restore the knowledge if she could, or so she says. She's not so important that I am dying to have every last second with her. It's not that even if I don't care, or do forget, it's my prerogative to do so-- not some Prince's to make happen for me. I am the Thief of Light, and to me, Knowledge is the most precious thing there is. With all my faults and ethical voids, I have never Taken anyone's knowledge without almost immediately killing them. I'd rather be dead than have my mind fucked over without my consent, because that... it's the worst possible thing that could ever happen to me. Bar nothing.
Matt's army, the force of greater good that will almost surely overcome evil in the end, because isn't that what always happens in fairytales? Haha. I think it's a cute idea, and sure, the evil can boast and brag and have powers, but it's also a really dumb idea, because if you're a God it's very hard to kill you unless you're doing something so foolish as being Heroic. My death would probably be a Just one, if any of these managed to catch up to me... although, I do hate to admit it, but I'd die to help a legend be born. Heroic to save that foolish dream! But I ramble (a bad habit of mine, though it's nice of you to let me get my thoughts in order like this, whoever you are), and so... it's a nice idea, and a cliche idea, and of course good will triumph over evil blah blah power of love and friendship and moral compasses. Even the dumbest hero can overcome the best-laid plans of his story's villain through sheer dumb luck and the insistence of the fairytale world that this is how it should go. But guess what? This world is no fairy tale, and no good story ever has a happy ending.
There's Lord Hyperion's, but he's an egotistical smug manipulative douchebag who has some of the most uncreative, repetitive insults I've ever heard. Hopefully he'll learn some new ones; I'm thinking about getting him a virus-laced thesaurus for Christmas to go along with Fell's apparent gift of a looped rope, sharp drop, and sudden stop-- which he's going to trade with an orphan in the holiday gift exchange for a wooden rocking-horse to beat Fell to death with-- how rude, to give away a gift sent straight from the heart! Anyway, he's trying to botch Game Sessions to become a legend much like Fell is, except in a much more boring manner. At least, that's what I've been told. I don't think he's accepting allies, anyway. Even so, I'd never go to him.
And then there's the path I've chosen: to kill every Player in a Session full of Gods to spark fear and build power to help Fell become a legend in his own right. The villain's path is oft the most entertaining, and as far as my truthseeker's vantage point goes, the most likely to lead me to the truth.
So yeah, sure. I might be manipulated and used. Go me, I'll be a pawn though I'd prefer to be a knight (moving weirdly all around the board, what even is its deal, and this is your Obligatory Chess Metaphor so ta-da) or better yet a thief watching and learning from the shadows. I don't really mind. I mean, his getting me to do something would be about as simple as "hey, would you do this?" because he offered to let me fight alongside him, and said that there's no definite chance I'll survive but if I do die it will almost assuredly be at his own hands. Very sweet, that.
And who really cares about dying, anyway, as long as there's a great way to get there?
So thanks for your concern, but no thanks. I've thrown my lot in with Fell, either way.