You know, when you thought you found the perfect balance in life, all is good, friends, family, work, love, but something so small makes one of these pillars you’ve built fall down and you don’t really know what made it crash, but it was obviously your fault because that’s what people say. because the crowd says so. if they all agree, it’s your fault, right? they can’t be wrong. you know that loneliness? like when you’re having such a shitty week at work or even at home and you need someone to talk to but there isn’t anyone. There isn’t. they aren’t there, because that person you needed decided to step back and join the rest and judge you. what a fucking huge pain i feel. I really feel like crying for eternity. why can’t i make people stay? i’m pissed. i’m sad. i’m disappointed. disappointed on them, one me, on the word “friendship”, disappointed on the lack of strength i have, of not being able to do anything about it. of not being able to make people choose me. Also disappointed of the shitty attitudes people take on me, like silent treatment? seriously? you know what. don’t talk to me, ignore the hell out of me. If you really mean that, if you really don’t want to stay in my life just say it, i’ll leave. you just fucking need to get your pants on and be an adult for once in your life and say it.